Who.Is.Me.
Sharina Bynes
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crash crash crash.

dance dance dance.

dontdontdontdont stop the beat. cantcantcant control the beat. peapeapeaple in the street.

goin nuts. tired tired tired.

semis in three days! we have to have to make it. i dont bloody care la.

got my outfitter jeans yesterday! woots woots woots.

and i wear a size 0. i was like laughin like mad when i got it. size 0! gosh!

that's like, in the words of the geek boy in Beauty and the Geek, like you dont exist. it's like a negative!

lol. surprises.

watched The Hills Have Eyes on sat.

i never wanted to watch that. i just knew that it was....not gonna be somethin i like.

the same storyline as Wrong Turn (starrin Eliza Dushku).

only this one involves family instead of friends. and well...it's friggin more gory.

i hate it.

somewhere in the middle of the plots, these beasts went to hunt down the trailer and two of them sorta rape this teenage girl.

gosh i never felt so mad in a cinema before. i was like biting my finger so i wont say the "f" word and i was like breathing heavily.

the pain in her eyes. fucking beasts. it's so inhumane.

and how they burn people alive.

i know it's just a movie but gosh, was it a painful sight. really painful.

i was still seethin in anger by the end of it.

so yesterday was my last day at work. no more job for me. that means no more shoppin money. sheesh. that sucks. oh and noone to pay for my handphone bill.

timing sucks. just when i told my dad last month that he need not give me any more money unless i need it.

just when i thought i can be independent. i mean u're goin to be 19 and u are askin parents for money?

i feel...weird.

so now, i have no bloody idea what to do.

boy, am i screwed.

hah.

oh, and go get myspace people. it's so amazing. all these new talents who actually make listen-able music. some even have fantastic music i tell you. i have no clue where they find me from but they were addin me and stuff and it was just plain cool. friggin awesome! the thing that keeps me goin at the moment. hahahaha. and of course...weird messages from weird ppl making me laugh. hahahaha.






MTV Fashionably Loud Party was cooooooooooooooooool.

sweeeeeet.

it wasnt exactly what i expected but it was okay.

and there were really some nice german guys there. they actually let me and sonia go in front of them!

and that first guy who talked to me...gosh...he was hot hot hot. and we were talkin! abt height. lol. i think he thinks i'm puny. wuhauhauhauhua.

and then this caucasian girl came along and spoiled the whole thing. wuhauhauhaua.

"i'm Alessandra".

bish.

so whatever. and Son said she looks like Nicole from ANTM. wahaha. a lil maybe. the lips!

and sonia and i got close to the stage when this other german guys let us go in front of them.

they are like friggin tall la.

and the models...they arent...i dunno. dont seem professional to me. like at all.

and jeslynn and molar...i mean mala were hilarious. gosh are they crazy. and yes they were great company.

some corny lines:
"the way sonia drinks is so hot." - mala

well there were lots but i cant rmb. haha.

so there were the german guys. hot hot hot. the guy in red shirt. ooh! and he talked to me! ooh!

and then there's this weird caucasian girl who kept staring at me. intimidating. and she made her way and stood beside me halfway thru the show and we stared at each other for like 5 seconds.

wayyyy weird.

and then there was the "is he sebastian from simple plan" case. all sonia's fault la.

and that vince guy from the dating show (i cant remember the title but it's on wednesdays) is such a friggin bastard.
"oooh we're from placebo!"
freak ur ass mate.

gosh i need to talk to char. i was cold the previous time. sigh. where is char.






Today is a good day.

Today is a good good day.

Today is the first day where i slept in late.

Woke up at 12.30pm , on the radio, text Sebastian and went back to bed again.

(oh, use ur mouse to scroll down. u know that thing in the middle.) :P

And then i realised it wasnt Sebastian on the radio. And Mario text-ed me back saying "hey it's mario. Seb's doin 5 to 9."

and we exchanged like 4 messages. super cool la. he's in a good good mood maybe. haha. though Mario text me saying he's hungry. lmao.

and it was a sms frenzy on the bed. sabby. aizat. hahaha. damn funny la.

and today is a good good day. yes i know i said that already.

i called up the customer service for my internet thingy and everythin is settled and hopefully, all can work today.

and mum put a "love you" at the end of her sms again, telling me to buy detergent.

and it's been good cuz i signed up for myspace. The Veronicas rocks la.

and when i woke up today, i remembered my dream. that is weird cuz i have dreamless nights.

but i remembered it super clearly. and it involves....(this is even weirder) paris hilton.

me and paris hilton.

just me and paris hilton.

and i dont even like....like paris all that much.

the content cant be told though.

but i think i know why i dreamt of that. well. things do happen for a reason. maybe cuz i am longing for char. i miss char. so much. nv really felt anything like it. it's all so surreal.

even our name's alike. gosh.

and that is why i have to forget abt chaz. though i dont think i can. it'll just a leave scar somewhere. and scars..."and my scars remind me that the past is real."

well. it was more sur-real than real.

and now, i just checked Friendster Horoscope:

The Bottom Line

All that glitters is not gold. If it seems too good to be true today, then it is.

In Detail

You can come out now; it's finally safe. That means whatever you've been trying to forget about --in vain, judging by the quality of your sleep lately --will finally become no more than a distant memory. In the meantime, you can do yourself a tremendous favor by simply letting go of the anger and resentment you've been feeling --and what finer way to do just that than by taking yourself out for a ride, a shopping spree or a massage? A nice, long one. Do it to it.

it's so real that it's freaky. i wonder if beth is feelin the same way. oooooh.

need to get dress now.






So these past three days was all abt rehearsing for th Hollaback Crew thingy.

And yay... we got to the finals. rocks rocks rocks. there's a 40percent chance that we get to go to the finals.

and appear on MTV! and get to meet CLICK FIVE.

how frigging awesome is that man?!

all we need to do now is WORK IT OUT.

PUSSYMAO can MEOW!

woots.

and today is a good good day. i say.

well, it's all been goin well.

Pussymao got into semis. I got my beanie and that camo t-shirt Avril has!

and that auntie in the shop was super funny la. and aizat kept flirting with her. wuhauhauhauhua.

and i really wanted to get that grey bermudas from peninsula.

what happened was they didnt have a nets machine or a credit card machine.

so i was like sheesh...and the girl gave me direction for the nearest ATM.

and that was when aizat and i went to the next shop and spent like 15min inside.

raffles city next and there was this cool cool shop. and i saw a card with just "kinky" on the cover and it reminds me of Bethsaida. sweeeeet.

and when we split, aizat msged me and said "that girl in peninsula already crying with your bermudas."

wuhauhuahuhhaua.

it's too ex for a berms anyways. but i likeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

took the bus home. and met my primary school friend in the bus! woots.

so cool la. but she was kinda blur when i called out her name. and then her expression went "ohhhhhh". lol.

and so i decided to stop by Shop and Save to get soda and guess who i saw?

yesssss....Oliver.

he was like goin off.

then when i was queueing up, he went to the next counter and helped out the girl at the cashier counter.

so he was like opposite me and i looked up and he raised his eyebrows at me to acknowledge me. woots!

and now i shall paint my room. finally right?






So i'm suppose to be bloggin this on Monday night but was just too too busy busy.

it's all good.

i'm all smiles.

gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous.

i'm goin nuts.

so sunday!

i missed the last episode of Gilmore Girlssssss.....freak ass shit la.

stupid jam. otherwise i could have caught the last half hour or something. i'm furious yes. ugh. boo.

and then, turned my studyroom into a bedroom since my mum bought like new mattress.

since i was so-called tired, my mum decided she would help me out with the arrangements. woots.

i cleared up stuff and she wiped the bed. all the dust!

and it was great cuz it was like a mother-daughter bonding thing. me making fun of my mum, mum laughin at my jokes, pushing each other around.

kinda nice. :)

caught Underworld on Tuesday and it was oh-my-goodness. it's so violent. and the usher didnt check my IC! woots. hahahha.

but it was not too bad.

let's see if the rest of the week turns out not too bad as well. i'm gonna go back to sleep. morning.






and the world just crashed.

it's sad when u feel like u know that one person, and something crops up and that person is alien to you.

u cant understand. no matter how hard u try.

u try to put two and two together. but it burst into a million pieces all over again.

it's sad cuz the person who keeps you goin everyday and whom makes u smile is no longer able to do so. cuz another being has evolved within the person. which upsets you.

and worse still, that bloody person is so bloody ignorant and dont give a shit and give you the sense of "i dont care."

and my mum just walked into my room, glanced at my computer screen and asked "kenape nangis?"

and i just shook my head, saying "nothing" and "everythin's all right."
i cant tell her. i cant tell noone.

i can only tell myself. but then again, i cant really tell myself. cuz i am tryin to forget. i am tryin to forget the two months we shared.






Finally Final Destination.

The horrifyin Final Destination 3. Frigging Daunting 3.

When i got out of the theatre i was wishin that i had never watched it.

it's bloody gruesome.

I was OMG-ing throughout the movie. well, not really but my mind kept sayin tt. and by the time the movie was over, i had tears in my eyes.

and i was like "oh shit man."

and 15 min after the movie, my eyes were still glistened with tears. i wasnt crying...i was just...horrified. very much. and shocked i guess. cuz i never come across such bad death experience and seeing all those inhumane things were...frightening.

and half hour after the movie, the images of how the victims got killed were still stuck in my head. includin the ones from FD 2.

and i was shivering throughout the movie. not really throughout, but after the rollercoaster disaster.

it was so...goodness.

and i wasnt shiverin because of the coldness. nope.

and i feel so sad for those bimbotic girls. they suffered the most. and they were sorta innocent. sigh.

and they used that phrase again! - What Doesnt Kill You Will Only Make You Stronger.
i never really noticed that phrase until Mr Chin used it in the CA 3 paper.

and that same phrase was also used in Grey's Anatomy.

some famous phrase i guess.

but it's kinda true. it's logical.

at least i caught the Final Destination trilogy. and i am proud to say i am a Final Destination fan. sorta. they are great movies, i have to say, no matter how gruesome.

still i find that the FD 3 shud be rated M18 insteard of NC16.

and yepp i gotta say FD 2 was my favourite. but i like all. kinda.

and got my spaghetti! yum yum yum.
got the kids' spaghetti meal. and Vik was teasin me.

well....18 right....1 X 8 = 8 means i am eight yrs old. haha.

and on the way home, while i was in the train, the train scene in FD 3 kept replayin in my mind. and while walkin home, i saw this barbwire (with lightbulbs) hanging on tree to tree and i was wonderin if it slips off, will it go around someone's neck and choke tt person and slide that person arnd like the scene where the sister almost got killed due to the horse draggin her round and round. and since light bulbs are something electrifyin, i was wonderin if it would explode or anythin and if the glass would stick to someone's face.
yes. imagination run wild.

and now i am tired.

and the FD 3 scenario is fading away.

thank goodness.






and the world just crashed.

it's sad when u feel like u know that one person, and something crops up and that person is alien to you.

u cant understand. no matter how hard u try.

u try to put two and two together. but it burst into a million pieces all over again.

it's sad cuz the person who keeps you goin everyday and whom makes u smile is no longer able to do so. cu">Manoel Barros