Who.Is.Me.
Sharina Bynes
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your nightmare.

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Here I am Again...bored perhaps...
though i have lotsa stuff to do. From editing my DVPA script to watching my tv to practising my dance moves...
oh yesh! All for Flora's sake.

Here's the list of my roles to serve my fellow classmates for DVPA:

Flora: Dancer (am dancing to Britney's I've Got Tt Boom Boom)
May: Chinese singer (to sing Ni Yao De Ai)
Jawei: Singer (to sing Things I'll Never Say)
Jasmine: Presenter
James: Presenter
Sonia: Floor Manager
Andrew: Floor Manager
Timothy: Floor Manager
Sarah: Soundman
Sabarina: Vision Mixer
Meihui: soundman? or was it cameraman?
Jesslin: Cameraman 1

I think tt's all. Hmmm...i wonder how i'll appear "on air".
Hopefully I know my dance steps and my voice doesnt crack. tt will be so embarrassing.
I think i better start crackin and choreograph "I've GOt That Boom Boom". Oh great. I have only one day to prepare.

Ladies and gentlemen, I've got a story to tell. About Mona Lisa and how she suddenly fell. See, everyone knew her, they knew her so well. Now I am taking over to release her from her spell.

Mona Lisa - my alter ego







It was shopping, shopping and more shopping today.
I am so glad I went out...was great catchin up with my old fren. But the best part is that I got what I wanted. Bought a leather jacket....woohoo! Finally.
Here's a list of what i bought:
Leather Jacket - $79 [imagine! it's only 79!! and i dun think it's of real leather which is good. :) ]
Cotton Jacket - $16
T-shirt - $12
Food - $3.40
TOTAL=110.40

There. I used up my allowance for this coming week. Left with like $9.
Oh Great.
But at least...i got my stuff....wheee








Today's Discovery:

-An angmoh added me on frenster...(He looks like one of the guys in Smash) (woohoo!!)
-Kelvin is in Singapore and we are -hopefully- to meet on Thursday. I juz love him. He makes me feel important. Hahaz. (wheee)
-Palam's aka Pelam -the Newsradio event-in-charge- real name is Puvanambigai Ponnampalam. There you go. hahaz.
-James's composed songs are not tt bad. Not too bad after all.
-Mr David Cheong always get dumped by his girlfrens when he was our age. (Poor old man)
-Sabarina made me cry. I hate her. Hmmph

-out-







Bumped into this notebook of mine and since i have nothing better to write, here are some information. You can overlook it if u want. :)

No. of guys i went out with (dates): 31
No. of dates went (excluding times when i am attached): 38
No. of the guys i kissed: N.A.

:)

These are all statistics which are not required for ur knowledge.
Thank you very much.







Been feeling really really bored this week. Like totally. Usually, even if i am bored to that extent, i will find something interesting to do. SOmehow, tt didnt come as easily this week.
Sure, i haf lotsa stuff to accomplish but well, those can wait. Entertainment first. You have to be happy if u wanna delegate.
Also, am feeling really lethargic this week. Been sleepin, been on the couch, been hibernating in front of my com...god! Time is Money...i hafta to something.

-Out-

Havent been blogging lately.

So i shall share some pictures...there u go.

Will be back on my blog if i have something to say. LATER! =)

Me, Mummy and Daddy. gee

GOt a new blogskin today. Hooray.
Finally, I feature myself on my blog....time to show everyone who i really am - Britney Spears. Hahaz.
Well, I have to thank Andre...he helped me out with the blog thingy. Actually, he pretty much did everything...hahaz...thanks ya!!! :) Greatly appreciated.
So ya...my new blog! My prerogative.







Had a break down last night. I guess it's like one of the worst breakdown ever.
Somehow, everything came crashing down.
I dunno wad strike all the emotions to come pouring in. I really don't.
It totally suck whenever tt happens...i will find myself pulling my hair, crying incessantly and stuff and my eyes really hurt today. Not in the mood anyhow.

I suppose everyone has made a total closure on wad kinda person i am? Like, i am that cheerful, bubbly, happy-go-lucky girl who has the laughing gas in her 24/7.
Perhaps, tt's wad it looks like? (my assumption)
It's either that or nobody bothers to find out. Or perhaps they juz dunno the truth.

There's more to me. What you see is not what you get in my case. The story goes on behind closed doors.
I am a complicated person. Sometimes, I myself can't figure out who i am. I would like to be optimistic and think i am that happy person...at least, tt's how i behave when i am around people, when i am in public, when i am in school... and honestly, tt is me that u see. Juz not the complete picture.
Come to think of it, only one person knows who i really am. Even though, she doesnt know the whole truth. I have so many secrets in me, or should i say the dark side of me has many secrets. Bet everyone will be shock if they truth reveals itself.
It's so unlike me. It's the total opposite of what you see.

I find myself crying at night. Wondering...what if...
It happens rather often. Perhaps, it's due to the turmoil tt's in my mind. It's one huge turmoil that i suppose noone, and i mean noone will ever understand. So, why share what is on my mind right? it's of no use.
I don't suppose i think too much. It's juz tt i think rationally. And when i do tt, i realise one problem tumbles after another. It's like a vicious cycle and i can never find peace.

Depressed kid, maybe. Pathetic as well? Lonely, definitely.
I think i better stop before i start pulling at my hair again.

I need some time off from myself. Will figure out how to achieve tt.
I juz hope i wun do anything stupid.
I am capable of doing everything and anything.
Only I know tt.








Totally skipped IPRA lecture...deliberately. The first time i 'pon' a class....gee. Well, there IS a first time for everything.
Cant really blame me...the desire to go to the KBox overpowered the rationality of my left brain..as far as i am concerned, I missed out the fun on thursday when i watched Phantom of The Opera. (Opportunity Cost)
So, wadeva it is...it shud all be worth it to totally miss IPRA to fulfil my satisfaction for the upcoming star in me. :) GEE.

So this is wad happened:
-May and Andrew sang duet like a couple of times or so. (LMAO!!) THEY ARE TOO SOFT LAHZ...shy maybe.
-Sabarina has such a strong voice. POWER!!
-Jason sang chinese songs...hahaz.
-I heard Ryan sing!! At first, he was juz fooling arnd with da mike...but boy can he sing. He has that rock thing going on...sweeeeeet! NICE!!
-I heard Sonia sing!! so soft and sweet...
-Aizat is so shameless. LMAO. the OPERA SINGER who can be rather volatile and sing all songs...hahaz.
-Jiahui was damn good lorz...she can totally replace baby spice...she can dance!! hAHaz.
-Timothy sang This I Promise Youuuuuuuuu
-Jiaying is more talented than Scary Spice...she is so funny!! hahaz.

All in all...it was ineffable joy...hmmm....sweeeeet.

And my voice is kinda hoarse now...well, everything happens for a reason. :)








I received the COHESION magazine yesterday in my mailbox...i looked so funny...oh shit.
hahaz...anyways, i showed it to my mum and somehow, she got all excited. She was like.."OMG. It's you...ya, it's you! *giggles* When was tt taken?"
After explaining the whole process of when, where and how, she asked me to place the mag on the table. Upon askin why, she said "Oh, i wanna bring it to work tml. I wanna show it to my frens." And she smiled aways.
SIAo...I was like "no! no...no way. CANNOT!" Oh well...embarrassing moments.

Another one...it isnt really wad u would call embarrassing but oh well...a C and a D+ for newswriting? Now, tt's wad i call embarrassing. And my name has to appear in the last column...looks like i am the weakest. I hate tt. I so hate tt. My English has like gone down the drain somehow.
But the good news was like, after the end of Newswriting lesson on Monsay, Ms Hui said i was like the perfect candidate for the media. woohoo. hahaz...i juz have to work on my writing. And i have the personality and stuff. tt's wad she said.
hahaz...i sound so egoistic. Nothing of tt sort...i am juz sharing my half-joy with my blog.

Gonna watch Phantom of the Opera later...yay!
School's gonna start. LATER!
+) *cheers*







I am back….back from nowhere land and I am now facing my blog.

Hmmm…let me make an update….on certain things.

First of all…I met TBG (aka The Blonde Guy) version 2 at the yellow tunnel in sch on Monday….OMG OMG OMG OMG!! Tell me abt it. Hot Hot Hot….i am on fire….lmao.
Was rather embarrassing for me lahz…..as I was in my usual mode, being silly and making a fool out of myself and playing with my oh-so-creative phrases…at tt time, my sisters and I were doing a “oi-ah (fire!)”…so as I was abt to turn around the corner at the yellow tunnel, I was actually say oi-ah…and wad happened was TBG (2) was turning round the corner as well from the other side…so the whole process was like “oi-ah *huge GASP* fire”. And I guessed he saw me doing whatever it is called….OMG OMG OMG. TBG saw me!! And there I was being so….errr…can u fill in the blank for me? Hahaz.

Been rushing with the WP proposal…sure it is finally done. After some rather big changes by Andrew cuz he wasn’t really satisfied with our proposal…but it was all good. Anyways…everytime when we (me, Sonia & Andrew) are discussing…somehow…SOMEHOW…I keep saying “SO Funny”. It’s juz not so funny…it’s SO FuNNY with a tune….perhaps u wun get me but maybe u wud when u hear me say it…it’s so damn addictive…and I haft tt disease…the disease of funnitolosist or whatever u call it – accordin to Andrew.
(watch out Andrew and Sonia…u guys are slowly absorbing the word SO FuNNY…in no time, you would keep saying it)

Got my MP3 juz now…after waiting for like 5 days. But here’s the catch: when I switch it on, it was all in Chinese…yesh! CHINESE! How in the world am I gonna know how to programme it! PHIYO!! HELP HELP. The Wall Is Collapsing!

I’ve got more to say but I will keep it for some other time ok? Anyways…I am such a boring person…ppl arnd me will only stone…HAHAz…I dunno wad I am saying…Pardon me.

LATER! =)







Thanks to Sabby...I discovered another 3 of my phrases and recalled a few more that are listed only in MY dictionary.
Here it goes:

11. eee-xactly
12. no. bluff!
13. "Aaaargh! He's sooo cute"
14. "Aaarrghh...we are all gonna die." *car to zoom past*
15. Sweeeeeet

And the latest entry ===> WUAHUAHUAHUA <====Laughter. (adapted from Sabby's HUAHUAHUA)

And right now...i am singing away...blasting LALA on my stereo...man, it's juz so great when there's nobody at home. Hahaz...I have the whole house to myself. Bet the neighbours are gonna come knock on my door soon...
If they do, I'll juz play "Don't knock on my Door" by Britney Spears.
Wish me luck. =)








You guys should have heard all these before...heard it from me and are sick of it...but oh well...
they stick with me...and you ppl out there...these phrases/words/whatsoever are copyrighted by ME!! :)

10. LoL (with hand action)
9. "Aaarrrgghhh (Justin)"
8. Phiyo!
7. Oi-ah. (fire)
6. Help Help! The Wall is Collapsing!
5. right.
4. Is that sarcastic??
3. Oooh....I try to be normal...
2. LMAO (pronounced as LER-MAO. say again...LER-MAO. ah....smart ass)
1. Say What??

But no worries...we can all share these lines. =)

p.s. I feel like i am missing out something but dunno lahz...







Have yet to recover from my sickness-whatever u call it.
My mum juz called me....hmm...it's rather seldom tt she calls me when she's at work. Very nice of her to ask me whether i've eaten and stuff like tt...hahaz.
Love my Mum.
And my Dad had to cancel our dinner appointment. phiyo! It's usually like he will either cancel it or he will come an hour later...cant really blame him lahz.
My voice kinda hoarse and i juz recorded my voice to see how it sounds like. Man, was it like low...my voice is like low. Oh no.
But hey, i cant choose my voice.
Uh...at least I can choose wad to wear to tml.








I am gonna be sick.
Somebody scratch my throat.
Later







He loves me, He loves me not. He loves me, He loves me not. I really dunno.

So much have been going thru my mind these few days...and I guess that was why I didnt really have a peaceful mind. The traffic in my brain is driving me insane...

I will juz say whatever that is fresh on my mind:

There I was...lonely. He's online. I am online. My phone isnt ringing. And we aint communicating at all...it happened for like a week. He wun talk unless I beep him online. And he juz doesnt seem interested to 'talk'.

Juz as i was abt to give up on him...there he was...greeting me online with a rose...like he always does. And I began to melt...AGAIN. The smallest action from him can make me fly...seriously....but nowadays, i didnt fly TT high...as compared to months ago.

Maybe the love juz fizzled out...sure we aint together physically...but we are together spiritually. And he did and always mention he thinks of me. *melts* Hahaz...
BUT here's the catch...he did say "in order for us to be together, we really need to be together."
So...what does that mean? I didnt ask him further cuz i really dont want to push my luck.

Maybe a huge part of me doesnt want to let him go. YET. or EVER.
I really thought he was THE ONE. No kidding...
We did talk-he said all these these things like whatever he owns could be mine...he said "our kids"...and stuff like tt....so where does tt leave me now? Is he leading me on? Guys don't say these kinda things for the matter of saying it...so it muz mean something right?

And here i am...all clueless again.
Perhaps i wun give up on love...his love. juz HIS.

xxx

(Call me selfish but all i want is ur love...i juz gotta haf u for myself)








I juz spent close to 20 min writing abt the New Year's Eve. But somehow, it's all gone now cuz i forgot to "save it as draft" before i refresh the page. Crrraaap!
And I am sooo not going to re-type...kurwa-mac, my head is spinning again.

ANyways,
to all human beings-Welcome to 2005!

best wishes
-shar-