Finally I have the time to blog. So many many things to say. So I am gonna divide this entry into 4 parts starting from the most important. My grandma. She fell into a drain yesterday and dislocated her left arm. And now she cant move. And now, she is like having fever and vomiting. I work up like super early this morning to visit her at my aunts place. She looked so weak and fragile. And tears welled up in my eyes. And my grandma said Pain. I cant even move. And I dont feel like eating. Seeing my grandma in such pain twists my heart to such extent tt I cried at that spot, in front of my grandma. I cant help it. I cant bear to see anyone I love in such great pain. It suck. Why cant it be me? Why muz it be my grandma, who is already old? And my oh my, I think my grandma lost like so much weight since the last time I saw her, which is like a month ago.
And I was thinking and I came to a conclusion that I cant accept the fact if my grandma isnt around. I cant. You see, she took care of me when I was in kindergarten and once in a while after that, babysitting me, buying me sweets, giving me advice and all those stuff.
And I love my grandma so much that I always scold my cousins if they are rude and ungrateful to my grandma. And in the end, they will complain to their parents and my aunt and uncle will told me off. I will do anything for my grandma.
But everything happens for a reason. Maybe this incident will make me appreciate my grandma and her visit her more often and make my youngest aunt treasure my granny. Cuz it is like, since my granny stays with my younger aunt, my aunt always take advantage of granny and stuff like cook, wash clothes and all that.
And my grandma always told me that life is hard. i pray for her to get well and healthy.
When I got the news last night, I was like cryin on the spot. And I was like working at that time. This morning, I woke up super early, bought fruits and visited my grandma. Sat beside her for twenty minutes; not saying anything much. Juz observe my grandma. And the image is still clear in my mind. And it hurts so much to see her like that. After a while I said goodbye and asked my grandma to take care and I went to the washroom to wash up my face. So I thought I would say bye again to my grandma but she was vomiting into a pail and I cant bear to look at it so I juz turned away and went out. And then I took a cab and rushed to work.
And it still terrifies me if anything is to happen to grandma. She is having an operation on tues or wed and till then, I hope and I pray dearly that everything will be ok. And I know everything will be ok.
And my mum is sick too. Fever and very very bad cough. I havent spoke to her much cuz I am so so so so so so so mad at her. As in like I didnt talk to her from Tues to Friday. It is not tt I am being rude or anything but I juz want my mum to learn a lesson at least. I supposed she knows tt deep down I care and I love her so much so that I would rather that I die first so that I wont have to live another day without my mum. But now, we are on speaking terms and I juz bought for her chicken rice so everything is fine again.
The Freshmen Orientation Camp was fine. Better than I expected. Yeah.
And last but not least:
I went for my first date of the year tonight. It was good. Not too bad. But he asked me like so many questions as if I was a candidate applying to be his girlfriend. He is pretty funny and he is nice and not bad looking. That is the bottom line. Hahaz.
And gotta wake up early tml!!! For the bloody FOP thingy. In Jiahuis words, we really ask for it . . . as in signing up for so many activities. There goes my holidays. I dont even have time to idle around.
