He loves me, He loves me not. He loves me, He loves me not. I really dunno.
So much have been going thru my mind these few days...and I guess that was why I didnt really have a peaceful mind. The traffic in my brain is driving me insane...
I will juz say whatever that is fresh on my mind:
There I was...lonely. He's online. I am online. My phone isnt ringing. And we aint communicating at all...it happened for like a week. He wun talk unless I beep him online. And he juz doesnt seem interested to 'talk'.
Juz as i was abt to give up on him...there he was...greeting me online with a rose...like he always does. And I began to melt...AGAIN. The smallest action from him can make me fly...seriously....but nowadays, i didnt fly TT high...as compared to months ago.
Maybe the love juz fizzled out...sure we aint together physically...but we are together spiritually. And he did and always mention he thinks of me. *melts* Hahaz...
BUT here's the catch...he did say "in order for us to be together, we really need to be together."
So...what does that mean? I didnt ask him further cuz i really dont want to push my luck.
Maybe a huge part of me doesnt want to let him go. YET. or EVER.
I really thought he was THE ONE. No kidding...
We did talk-he said all these these things like whatever he owns could be mine...he said "our kids"...and stuff like tt....so where does tt leave me now? Is he leading me on? Guys don't say these kinda things for the matter of saying it...so it muz mean something right?
And here i am...all clueless again. Perhaps i wun give up on love...his love. juz HIS.
xxx
(Call me selfish but all i want is ur love...i juz gotta haf u for myself)
