:::::ALTER EGO >>> MONA LISA :::::

re-re-surected

2007-04-02T15:11:00.000-07:00

I THINK I'M BACK!!

aye aye. back with so much more to give and back with a vengeance with an attitude of a skunk. ho!

2006-10-07T22:46:00.000-07:00

GREETINGS FROM SHARINA! HEYYYYYY HO!

BLOG IS INACTIVE TYVM. so --

CLICK CLOCK ME :)

no title.

2006-08-20T23:40:00.000-07:00

Full shift at work today. gosh.

but it went better than i thought it would be. seriously, some men are just so pervetic. i cant stand it.

like they would come up to me and ask for the price and stuff...ask and ask and ask then they wouldnt buy it. and some would just stare at me like whatever the freak for. and worse, they take out their cams and pointed it in my direction.

and so i would think "oh, they want a postcard picture of the shop" so i would move away and the camera changes its position as well and aimed back at me. fuckin pervs. and that happen like dunno how many times la. gosh.

so today was a good day. tired but good. so no complains.

rahh. i wanna go for the pot luck party tmr. :(

happy happy joy joy to the country

2006-08-09T23:55:00.000-07:00

National Dayyyyy. well, i like it here in singapore. i'm glad i didnt like follow my dad to the US or somethin. Singapore is some really awesome country and i really really like it here. patriotic me! wheeee. *grins*

So it was full moon today. gosh u guys shud have seen the moon. it was soooooo pretty. so i was workin and then Frankie (my colleague) came along and he was tellin me to look at the moon and when i saw it i went "whoa. it's so pretty" and i think i was gushin out loud or somethin and then he said..."if i was superman, i would fly you to the moon" and i went awwwwwwwww inside. that's like so so so sweet. gosh.

and since he was hanging around my work area we talked and talked and talked though he was suppose to be in the other shop. and since i was sellin ice cream i went "aaaagh. i feel like eatin ice cream" and then he opened the fridge and gave me an ice cream cone!

i was...uh..in seconday school term...dumbfounded. lmao. seriously though. and i was like "for me?" and he said "ya la. u said u want ice cream right? so i gave u one." gosh that was like the second sweet thing he did in the same night within the same hour la.

and Frankie...he's like some small boy trapped in a...okay i dunno how old he is. 30 maybe? but dammit. he's like so so so cute. gosh. okay i'm gushin. lol.

Project meeting for the final final final so-called presentation went fine. as usual, the usual need to digress and everythin and we saw an Ashlee Simpson lookalike. omG she so looks like her. and she's like so hot. and i love love love wad she was wearing. rocks. \m/

and i called bethhhhh. it's somethin cuz i dont usually call people to just...talk. and gosh it's so expensive. 35 cents per min? rahh. >.< not fair. so i talked to her for abt 10 min and hung up.

okay my job's done here. *smiles*

almost almost.

2006-08-06T07:05:00.000-07:00

Things been so haywire. Once again, history repeats itself. This semester, i spent 3 nights not sleeping - MIA Ca, MIA CA 2 and CIBM. and i think it's gonna happen again - for WFM. rahh i'm just so lazyy.

didnt slp the whole of thurs night doin cibm and when i got home on friday night, i straight away went to bed. went to bed at 9. lmao. and worse still, got awoken up by a call at 430 am and then i went online till like 10 am before i got another couple hours of slp. lmao. it's so nutsy that i am crackin myself up.

i mean last min work? oh come on. That was so not Sharina. we were given like a month to prepare and i started a day before it. still, i think i shud be gracious to the fact that i did manage to finish it. i await the grade. rahh.

exactly. anyway. stop laughin at me sonia and may and jy and sabby. *makes a face*

went to shop shop shop after the meeting. dammit. summer end sale everywhere.

and i am so screwed la. i used the money that i am suppose to pay for my phone bill to buy clothes. screwed. just like how i've been throughout this semester. but hey, i got a top and pants. wheeee.

oh, a guy's top. gosh, i so need to alter it but it looked so damn hot. and grey pants. wheee. issit grey or gray? :S

it's 7 and Veronica Mars just ended. i shall take a nap, watch Las Vegas at 10 AND THEN do WFM. that shouldnt be a problem eh?

it's almost over.

2006-08-05T23:56:00.000-07:00

Today is a good day.

after all the many busy days i am entitled to a good day. yay. it's almost over. almost. cuz it'll never be over. geez i'm so tired.

went to work and Frankie and i hit it off. damn he's so funny la.

so i got to work like 15min early (i'm never early. i'm always on time. hah) and the manager was there and when i walked in he was like staring at me and i'm like...eh? and it's so weird la cuz he was like watchin me and i felt so damn nervous.

and then it hit me - my manager has a crush on me. >.< rah.

he asked my aunt for my name can. lmao la. and during the later hours, he was like standin beside me and giving me those "hey" kinda faces. meh.

and he's like 40plus plus and has a ring on his weddin finger. lmao. but nahhh, i think he's a nice guy. :)

but whatever. Frankie and i talked more than usual. gosh he's like this small boy la. and then he pointed out to this fat girl wearing this short skirt and said "she wear the skirt why like that" and i looked over and then this gust of wind blew and her skirt lifted up and we saw her buttcheeks. then we just looked at each other and burst out laughing.

omg it was hilarious. like wtf? wahahahaha. couldnt stop laughin for like ten min. thank goodness my aunt wasnt arnd.

and then there was this indian tourist who took out his camera and directed at where i was standing. and i was like ugh i gotta move so i moved to the other corner of the room and then he shifted his camera and directed at my new position. or at me i must say. wtf la. perv.

all before the exciting day at work, bryan brought me out for lunch and guess what. we were both wearing a green top and jeans. and to make it worse, the same shade of green. gosh i was like so bloody embarrassed. and yay he was wearin the shirt i bought for him. but still. rahh. corny corny.

Hi, I'm Hope Flannegan

2006-07-30T23:55:00.000-07:00

yet another update.

OMG EMO BOY TALKED TO ME.

he waved at me then he minded his own business and then later on he waved at me again and walked over to me.

i almost died. you should have seen what he was wearin. totally my type.

so i learnt that his name is Eugene. and yada yada yada.

Eugene is such an eww name. like the "eu" in the name "eugene itself". but he's so yummy-licious. wahahaha.

and i am Hope. Hope Flannegan.

meet Hope Flannegan people.

So spec dip shooting is o-v-e-r. it was fun while it lasted i must say. pretty much. i hope i was okay as Hope. LOL. i mean i cant act for nuts la but they are all so encouraging.

and yes i had to eat instant noodles again. lmao.

I LOOK HOT EATING INSTANT NOODLES.

so hot that i had to do it twice. LMFAO.

wahhahahaha.

so spec dip fyp wasnt as bad. i "hope" the final product will turn out fine. *cross fingers and toes*

NAFA can go suck eggs. LMAo.

i failed my 2.4km run. that is like so degrading la. like u did pretty well in the other stations and then WHAM u failed the last one. wahhhhhh.
congrats to sonny son son though. :)

so i spent the whole of thurs night and friday morning up. thanks to the MIA report. i;ve never in my whole entire life sit infront of my desktop from 10pm to 830am. ten and a half hour straight. gosh. without a break some more.

so went to class MIA late. and slept for three-quarter of the class. u cant blame me. and i skipped Gems class to sleep in the library. lmao.

neck hurts. but at least i caught up with some slp. and i had company. though it doesnt matter. huijin and rubest were catchin up on some slp as well. wahahahaha.

so now my back is aching. it aches like fuck. ouch ouch.

yay to cibm. i shall start monday night. someone encourage me pls.

my PET TURTLE!

2006-07-22T00:13:00.000-07:00

YAY.

i've got a PET TURTLE!

wooots.

*dances around*

it's so cute.

there were like so many terrapins for me to choose from and all of them were like so small.

and most of them were sleepin and then i saw one which was movin and it was lookin at me!
so i picked that one out!

and i got it a big cage and some food. there's a bridge and a fake tree and stuff.

*grins*

and when the woman put the terrapin on my palm. the terrapin scurried off and i screamed. it almost fell. :(

my mum was like "WHY IN THE WORLD DO U HAVE THAT IN THE HOUSE".
rah.
she cant stop me.

it's sleepin now...my terrapin. and i still havent had a name for it. i promised i will give him a name soon. oh yea it's male btw. and it's so so so small!

been a while since i update.

school's chaotic.

life's chaotic.

it's been a roller coaster ride for me. a roller coaster ride full of confusion. and doubt. and hurt.

but it's been great.

school's great.

with all the bimbo-ness goin on and all.

sabby is the original bimbo. wahahahaha.

and damn i'm so not blonde.

and denise keep sayin "u're even slower than a turtle with no legs". wahahaha.

lazy to type further.

RAH. two reports due next week. NOT COOL.

i have boring titles. but this is really an update

2006-07-07T23:52:00.000-07:00

woooo. finally the mood to update! and the time as well.

so...this two weeks have been a rollercoaster ride of emotions.
a major rollercoaster ride of feelings.

Like for example take this:

Horoscope Taurus - 7th July

Aren't you sick of playing it safe? Dare to dream. It's time to dive into a new project or line of work. The risks are great, but so are the payoffs. Try applying this attitude when it comes to romance too.

very very true.

anyways. let's do Monday.

hmm..CA marks for WFM. yay a B. a B for a writing module. woots woots. i guess. haha. and Mr Ang and his antics in CIBM. i think he's like super funny la. lmao. and i think he wants people to think he's funny that's why the funny antics. cuz he has that expectant look on his face when he...does his whatever lame things.

went to work after that. frown at work as usual. lol.

and cried in the bus on the way home.

Tuesday

prj discussion for Spec Dip and i was like GET A TURTLE AS A PET! and then there's this huge revelation and i felt that i needed a turtle.

like it's weird cuz it's like i long for a turtle. badly. like i was thinkin "the turtle can be my friend. and maybe i can talk to the turtle like how Hope will talk to her turtle." and i was happy cuz i really wanted to get a turtle. they are like small and cute and all and...green. lol.

so i am considerin gettin a pet turtle. just that i wouldnt know how to take care of it. like I DONT OWN PETS FFS. and wad if it grows really big? what do i do with it? *sigh*

Wednesday

ICMT was a...blast. like we were blasted. lol. but then the horoscope on that day said somethin like the achievement has yet to come. that means that we are halfway there. for icmt i guess. at least that's over and done with.

work.

and my mood was light on that day. amazing. i usually have this frown on when i work. like FREAK GO AWAY. DONT BUY THINGS FROM ME. haha. seriously. i think i scare customers away. and the CEO hates me. or so i think. she's always walkin arnd and everytime, i would look really serious or somethin. and she doesnt like that. i mean...people in the service sector are to smile right? lol.

but i was pretty much smilin the whole day that day. AWESOME. and there's this italian couple..he wanted to buy candy and i was like $3 and gave the hand sign 3 as well. and he was like "Tres?". and i was like...oh wow, italian. and then i went "grazie". wahahaha. me tryin to be international. and he said this long phrase in italian and i was like HUH. and then he smiled and walked away. somethin somethin espanyol somethin somethin. i felt like an idiot. wahahaha.

Thursday
it's only yesterday but i cant rmb it.

Friday
i nv learn anythin on Friday. or on any school days for that matter. lol. like i dont give a damn abt the presentations.
anyways, claire ng was HIlarious today. like totally. wahahaha. she damn funny la. she's was circling two words on the whiteboard and then she draw some lines at the end of it and said "look like my sunglasses right". and she went on abt how her sunglasses is her hairband and stuff. lmao la.
and others.
oh. and...

THANKEW SONIA FOR THE CAKES.

\m/

HELL YEA. BRING MORE!

wahahaha. thanks again son.

but then again, sonia is MEAN. cuz she drew on my hand five times today is lecture. oh i just came up with somethin...

wad do u get when sonia is mean?

meaNIA.

wahahaha. -.-

for three nights in a row, i've been having the ultimate paralysed leg thingy. i dont really know what it's called cuz i have no idea what it is. it hasnt happen since i was like 16 or somethin and now it's back again. three nights in a row i suffered before slp.

like there will be this sensation (a painful one) from my foot and it'll travel up to my calf. and i can practically feel it move. and then there will be this thing that gather at my calf and it'll like bunch up together and then my calf will grow all muscular and hard. and at that point, i wont be able to feel my leg. at all. and it happened one leg after another. and like i wanna scream in pain and twice i was sobbing. and i couldnt do anythin abt it. i cant move the leg and i cant feel it. and it can last up to 40min.

scary. and now it's acting up again, like i can feel it...anytime, the thing is gonna gather loads and start eatin up my calf. this time round my right leg. i am living in fear.

so true. too true.

2006-06-26T01:54:00.001-07:00

Taurus - 25th May 2006

Life is a fluid experience, now so more than ever. Things keep changing, and usually you're ready to roll with the punches. It's part of what keeps things exciting. Right now, these changes may require some painful (or at least slightly uncomfortable) adjustments on your part. You might even have to postpone some big travel plans, but this adjustment doesn't have to be permanent, so let go of that concern for now. It's not like you're failing, you're just putting off the inevitable

how true can that get. 3 people walked out on me. and my aunt sorta gave me a tick off in the morning. like when the clock struck 12 midnight yesterday, gosh it was so horrible. like everythin was perfectly fine till 3am and all the way till this morning. geez.

and check this one out:

Taurus - 26th May 2006

(daily overview)
Why not spend some time with old friends and family? At the least, you'll reconnect with some loved ones you haven't seen in far too long. At most, you'll rejuvenate your soul and refresh your sense of purpose.

like hell yea. meetin debbie deb deb tmr. gosh.

Searching for perfection? You will get tantalizingly close -- your plans will fall together perfectly and you will win some admirers along the way. This home run should keep your competitive streak satisfied for a while, so try to be content with what you've accomplished. Your drive is admirable, but if you focus too much on what could be better, you will miss out on all the things are that working so well. Things aren't ever going to be perfect -- and no one expects them to be.

talking about cibm and icm? lol. geez. i am sleepy. i cant go on sleepin at 6am anymore. aaaargh.

so true. too true.

2006-06-26T01:54:00.000-07:00

3 Things.

2006-06-19T19:58:00.000-07:00

okayyy...from soniaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa's.

names i go by:
shar
sharky shar shar
sharin
sharina

parts of the heritage:
chinese + javanese ++

things that scare me most:
ghosts.
bugs.
myself.

everyday essentials:
food food and more food.
laughter.
daily computer dosage (msn+ragen+reyna+panda+RC+robyn+tabby+++)

things that you're wearing:
tee and minis!

fave bands/singers:
too many!
BritneyBritney!
Avril!
Sugarcult!
The Veronicas!

things i want in a relationship:
all the moral things.
kisshesandhugsandkisshesandhugs.

2 truths and 1 lie:
'll die without m&ms.
i aint straight.
i watch tv everday.

physical things about the opposite sex that appeals to me:
teeth.
mouth.
smell...
oh wait...physical...hmm...hair!

favourite hobbies:
hobbies? so secondary school seh. haha. ::
tv!
be on the com 24/7.
music!

things i want badly now:
normal-ity.
peace.
you.

places i wanna go for vacation:
Rome
London
back to Texas. oh and pit stop - Nevada + Cali.

3 things i wanna try doing:
swim.
eat Mc everyday. lol.
not to on the com for at least 2 days.
yeah right. for all.

3 people i wanna see doing this:
Flora
Sabby
Sonia (but she already did. ha. :) )

class outing + wc!

2006-06-19T04:48:00.000-07:00

it's peculiar that mexico can lose to angola.

it's even peculiar that italy could lose to US.

and say goodbye to my money.

sigh.

but however bad it was, i was kinda proud of the mexico vs angola match. i mean..dude! there's the singapore referee! and he's the main referee! boy, was i so proud.

see? i am patriotic after all.

so Friday class outing was fun after all.

wanna thank Ms Helen Ng for the apple crumble and mango crumble (if that's what u call it). it was YUM YUM. though i am not a fan of mango though. haha.

and pillow/cushion fight with sonia.

I LOVE PILLOW FIGHTS. wahaha.

and gosh the incident.
as in Ryan's incident.

like how selenge can he get?

so what happened was that Ryan wanted to walk over to the other side or somethin and then PLONK.

the whole of this right leg was submerged in soil. like the ground swallowed him or somethin.
gosh it was hilarious. and when he pulled out his leg he was like eeeee. and that sounds funny too. wahaha.
and his slipper was lost in amidst the mud in the ground and he had to find it using this long stick. lmao la.

watched the whole 3 matches at East Coast. woohoo. all 9 of us. pretty much. except for the weak ones. wahaha. ryan and james. tsk tsk.

Argentina vs Serb&Montenegro.
Holland vs Ivory Coast
Mexico vs Angola.

exciting-ness.

and well yea, it was the start of my losing streak.

sigh.

i am emo. or am i.

2006-06-14T00:30:00.000-07:00

so i sat down.

like on the floor.

and then Hafiz came along and said "eh why you look so emo."

and i was like "huh?"

and then i was like yayy i'm emo.

so bottomline is....what i'm tryin to say....yay to emo-ness. (=

they call it coincidences

2006-06-11T18:26:00.000-07:00

i am still so mad.

mad at MIA.

mad at myself.

and cuz of that, i am mad at everyone.

AAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

like i've been staring at the computer screen for 4 hours?? since 2pm. and that's only today. what abt the time spent on saturday and friday night?

grr.

anyways.

weird things been happening.

well, maybe they're just coincidences.

Like yesterday...Peining's boyfriend out of the blue texted me asking me where she is.

and i was like HUH. first of all, it's been months since i talk/see her. and second of all, why did he text me of all people?? and how in the world did he get my number?

so on the way home...guessed who i bummed into?

Peining herself. She was shouting my name...me deaf being deaf. lol.

Like...whoaa....way too much to be a coincidence.

Got home at 8 and fell alseep. Woke up at 12am. went online. Slept at 7am. Woke up at 130pm.

My body clock is definitely screwed.

And guess who i dreamed of?

beth. (not sarah's beth...lol)

which makes it all even weirder cuz 1) i have dreamless nights and 2) even if i DO dream, i cant remember any of my dreams. and last of all....beth?!? so weird.

and it almost felt real. like wayy too real. like i was holding a real conversation with her.

blame it on my body i say.

omG love Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most.

The last line of the chorus is just so sad:

And not seeing that loving you Is what I was trying to do

i shall continue bein' angry.

MIA Literally.

2006-06-10T02:39:00.000-07:00

Today was pretty much okay. The Media In Asia report is really bringing me down. i just want to get it over and done with.

i should finish it on sunday. i should finish it on sunday. i should finish it on sunday.

wait..i should start and finish it on sunday. i should start and finish it on sunday. i should start and finish it on sunday.

then i'll be free and then i wont be so hard on myself. but how do i even start if i dont even know wtf is goin on??

sigh.

so work was fine. better than expected?

at least my aunt wasnt reprimanding me or anything.

since i was bored, i made my usual trips to the bathroom to...look at the mirror. why, yes. lol.

the bathroom at Mount Faber is like this open concept where there is a separate section for males and females and with like shared washing basins. very nature-like, with all the trees and wooden floors and stuff. so i was brushing my hair and this kinda old but fit angmoh (think George Clooney) was on his way to the bathroom and he said "beautiful beautiful." and he smiled. so nice la. what a teaser. lol. i was like so embarrassed la.

and then there's this cute cute cute waiter....aaaaaaaaargh. OMG he is so cute with his semi-emo hair. and he smiled at me. like 3 times. *gasp*

he looks too cute when he smiles! like nerd + emo. i like. lol.

and then there's this group of Istanbul men. really nice people i must say. dashingly handsome even though they're like...well, have white hair growing out. lol.

and i finally bought a new watch. wheeeee.

i hate MIA FFS.

Let's see how the summer hols go. (=

pizza pizza

2006-06-07T23:49:00.000-07:00

So I ate one whole of a pizza today...everything, all by myself.

Not only that, plus two chicken wings, garlic bread and a set of wedges.

Like throughout the whole day.

glutton glutton glutton.

so i called up the pizza place thingy and waited for the pizza boy...hoping that it was the same pizza boy that sent the pizza combo meal previously.

cuz if it is, then maybe i may invite him in for a while or somethin. *wink wink*

lmao.

but nahh jo wil kill me.

these few days have been nothing but hell i guess. i am being reminded me of the MIA-rushing-for-report days.
and it's bad. really bad. and i'm living the nightmare all over again.

and Singapore Idol is so God damn bad. omG. it totally pisses me off. like wtf are they airing man!

watched She's The Man with Debbie Deb Deb on Monday. OMG. it's totally hilarious. and the movie-goers...the crowd was just great even though the whole theatre was like fully booked. it was so friggin hilariously funny and i couldnt stop laughing la.

then shop shop shop. and i bought my third belt in a month. like my first Quiksilver belt can? lol. i am so not gonna tell my mum; she'll just wrap all the belts around my neck or somethin.
lazy to type further.

-out-

the rocker in meeeeeeeeeeeee

2006-05-31T21:20:00.000-07:00

You Are an Emo Rocker!

Expressive and deep, lyrics are really your thing.That doesn't mean you don't rock out...You just rock out with meaning.For you, rock is more about connecting than grandstanding.

What Kind of Rocker Are You?

Hard Rock Cage Cafe

2006-05-19T21:24:00.000-07:00

lunch break!

blog!

last night was madness. m-a-d-n-e-s-s. HARD ROCK CAFE. ----

yesterday was hectic. ICM meeting is going somewhere. at least we are moving on from swot. lol.

and then the discussion and friendly arguments about dinosaurs and adam and eve and God and human and evolution. such intellectual conversation.

and then wfm. poor me. i had to conduct a class with ten students whereas my other beloved students were busy enjoying Da Vinci Code. tsk tsk. haha. i wanna watch seh!

and then the SMART interview. well. kudos to the year 2s.

and then...went town to gear up for the Saw Loser (prev known as Pug jelly) + Crowned King (band from Canada) gig.

had dinner at Shaw. sonia is mean. she laughed at me 3 times in a row. like when i said "embarrasses" (yes i know...like what was i thinkin?) and when i hit my hand against the cup while doin some hand actions (God knows what i was thinking) and when i let go of my utensils in triumph when i finished my food.

and jeslynn is just plain...lmao. "where is shaw huh? issit lido there?" wahahaha.

and down to Hard Rock Cafe.

wooooo.

so we just sat at this booth at the back before the real thing started and there's this mix-lookin guy who sat two booths away from us. he's like photographin the event or somethin. and he glanced at me twice. and sonia said he likes me and well....wishful thinking. more to come!

Masashi is soooooo cute. especially when he performed the first two songs. it's like OH WOW. the way he played the guitar is so cute. and his mouth is like so cute. and he has such cute teeth. like seriously. it wasnt like aligned perfectly but it's like so cute. arrrgh. too cute!

and Sam was just plained hilarious. the way he sings? lol. he kept jerking jerking. lol.

and that guitarist in the white shirt is oh-so-cute. and he glanced at me like 4 times! ooooh. hotnesss.

but the highlight is.............

............

OMG. the photographer. he's like taking photos from the sides (mainly) and since me, sonia and jeslynn were at the side...it was....ooooh. *faints*

and i thought he smiled at me...like he knew i was lookin so he just smiled while taking photos and stuff. and once, he slightly tripped over my foot and i touched his hip. wahahaha.

i'm crazy la.

but he came over like oh-so-many times and he's just so good-lookin and the best thing is that he looks decent!

the crowd was small but nevertheless it was not bad. the people in the centre were moshing. mainly guys and one girl. lol.

and the music was super loud that my ears almost burst. ouchy ouch ouch. but music's not bad i must say!

and then we went to get our drinks. sonia and i had mooseheads. wahahaha.

and after the whole thing ended, we hung arnd a lil and then sonia and i took photos with masashi individually when the opportunity struck. he is like so cute.

when i asked "can i take a photo with u?" Masashi was like pointing here and there, like "where do u wanna take" and then we just settled like anywhere. lol.

ok. gems class. it is now 1pm. i shall continue later.

back home!

hmmm. where was i...

oh yes. so i took a photo with Masashi. so cute! then sonia took one with him.

and randomly, sonia asked whether he knew TT guy. and we both pointed to the photographer.

and he was like doin hand action sayin "come come" and then he approached the cute photographer and sonia followed him and then they started talkin to the photographer and then the cute guy walked over to me.

and all that time i was like ohshitohshit and jeslynnhelpme. it's like oh-goodness-so-embarrassing. like oohhhhhhhhhhhhhnoooooooooooooooooooo.

then he came over and i was like *faints*. haha.

he is so HOT. like cute. like good-looking. and he asked for my name (i think - the music's too loud) and i was like "sharina" and "ur name is...?" and he was like blahblahblah.

and i was like "edwin??" and he was like "no..." and somethin somethin. like after the third time, i learnt tt his name was like edwood.

SO CUTE!

and i was like...ok wad now...and i asked him whether he was an official photographer. i said official. wad the hell was wrong with me. i meant professional!

and he was "oh no no. i'm a model. photography's just my hobby you know."

and i was like HIS ACCENT IS SO CUTE.

*swoons*

lmao.

and sonia told me in the cab later on tt masashi was admiring the both of us. or somethin like tt la. the point is: he is damn blood nice! as in masashi! so helpful. i shud have said "you're so kind."

okay, pun intended. my bad. lol.

back to edwood pls.

so sonia being sonia, asked "do u guys wanna take a picture?"

lmao la sonia. but i'm glad! OMG. he was like so close to me.

and in the cab on the way home, sonia said we fit each other nicely. wahahaha. i wish la!

okay i am like grinning like an idiot as i am typing this. *sigh*

pls pls pls rewind to tt moment pls.

and then dunno wad happened and we're separated. lmao.

wahaha.

and i missed the last bus and sonia missed the last train (like ages ago) so went over to son's house.

and i was so restless at night. like i woke up like4 times between 130am to 6am. so i decided to just get up at 6 and go home.

and i get to slp for like one hour before goin for MIA class.

and yay, today is a good day after all.

in fact, this whole week has been nothing but a bliss. like seriously. this week is just so perfect.

pretty much. (=

and seven-letter-boy text-ed me. wheee. awwww.

and johannan (guy frm gems class) was super nice. (=

so cute. wahahaa.

yay to the world.

Connect 2006

2006-05-17T23:44:00.000-07:00

today was....

due to lack of vocabulary (accordint to May)....: _ _ T

figure tt word urself.

haha.

so the dance performance with aizat went smoothly. wheeeee.

and thanks sonia / ryan for videocamin' it!

and the food. wheeee. chomp chomp chomp.

and then off we went to Marina Square in hopes they had sneaks for Da Vinci Code. but cuz ryan is so selenge, there isnt any.

and sorry guys! i just didnt wanna watch Poseidon.

went to zara.

and sonia and i sorta pointed to this button down shirt at the same time. telepathy's back! wahahaha.

we so so so love tt shirt. OMG. it's like so cute. it's like so Veronicas. and it's like only 75bucks. yes the last one was sarcastic. lol.

the one at topshop is cuter! I WANNA GET ITTTTTTTT.

and then volcomvolcomvolcom. OMG. tt t-shirt was so HOT. like WOW. i so wanna get ttttttttttttttttttttttt, bah.

but due to circumstances - i spent like over 400 last month and i didnt know where the money went - i cant cuz my mum will definitely scream at me. lol.

and yay. i get to trick sonia with my ultimate shoulder-tap-tap trick. she truly turned around when i tapped her other shoulder. WOOTS.

icmt was rather "happenin" today. lol. like whoaaaaa. kudos to james for the entertainment. lol.
so this whole week has been nothin but good. let's see if it stays. which i hope.

seven-letter-boy is not here today. boo. but beth is. so wheee.

tomorrow i shall wake up and say "today is gonna be a good day".

i mean, after all...the first class is Mr Ang's anyhow. nothing to be unhappy about. lol.

ugh. i am not doin any work again tonight. what's happenin to me. sigh. boo. arrgh. bah.

i got a sorethroat.

help.

Happy Me Happy You

2006-05-16T23:59:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS A HAPPY HAPPY DAY.

well. tt's what i thought when i woke up this morning.

and it stayed true.

i woke up like at 8 to like pee...and then when i get back to my room, my bedsheet was gone and i was like "mummyyyyy!"

and she was like "i am sendin it to the laundry!"

and i was like booooo. there goes my favourite green-blue teddy bear bedsheet + pillowcases.

well, at least i get to see a clean one in a week! wheee.

then my mum came back from the laundry and grocery and whatever and she bought me currypuffs. potatoes. i want potatoes.

and then she fed me two spoonfuls of rice + meat. wahaha. i felt like a baby! wahaha.

so last night was.....eventful.

like there was him, there was her, there was everybodyyyy.

just like today!

online-wise. wahahaha.

and i've been talkin to nurul for 3 hours straight. dude, does she crack me up. and my fingers are so tired typing and typing.

and there was the "you're so kind" during the multi-conversation on msn and when i saw tt, i practically LOL. like WAHAHAHAHHA. all alone.

it's friggin hilarious.

and happy happy me.

and Friendster's horoscope for today was somethin like hmm...shucks cant remember....somethin like ...bah!

lemme try...i am in someone's heart or somethin though i may or may not realise it.
wahahaha.

coolness.

and today was good cuz aizat and i completed our dance. Be Without You is gonna be so hot!
and Desperate Housewives was like damn funny la. last night tt is.

and the sleepiness during cibm. OMG. tt can really kill you, man. it's so WTF. like wad's goin on! sigh. and the fact tt i love cibm is worse. i meant...tt;s like so interesting yet like...HHWHY isnt it interesting! lmao.

so Sunday was spent all at home.

i finally finished readin my storybook. Twins. I love it. it went so off in the middle.

i read for like six hours straight. like OMG. haha.

and i gave my mum a cake and did groceries and paid for the groceries. lmao.

omg. i gotta stay off the computer. i spend at least 3 hours everyday. at least. everyone shud just stop coming online.

okay i take tt back.

lol.

bipolar and bipolics

2006-05-13T12:50:00.000-07:00

yay i shall blog again.

today is a holiday.

today is a holiday and sadly today is a holiday filled with workload.

today is a funny day.

not really but well it's funny.

project meetin at Milennia Walk.

early early dinner. wad do we do before every project discussion?

chomp chomp chomp. Burger King. yum yum.

and then we felt lazy. as always. like since the beginning of the new semester, it's been all so slacked. way too slacked.

which is all wrong. it shud be frenzy and stuff.

so once again, we digressed.

somehow, i experienced different emotions within such short span of time. from laughin like noone's business, to being serious, to almost close to tears (when Evanescence's My Immortal came on radio) to being stupid.

as i would say it --

BOTTOMLINE: i have bipolar.

wahahahaha.

and then we came to a conclusion that all of us had bipolar.

lmao la.

and may is a maypolar. (God knows why.) i have no clue why actually. but i just played along. wahaha.

and so we became bipolics.

lmao.

bipolics sounds so cute. like me. yay. lmao.

and then there's the HHWHY issue. yessss tt's the key issue in our discussion. not SWOT.

wad happened was...all of us...naturally pronounced why as HHWHY. like we didnt notice it. i think sonia got tt thing goin first. wahahaha.

and all of us began sayin HHWHY and HHWHAT and HHWHITE as if it's second nature.

dude. it's scary i tell you. major influence. Mr ***...really ah.

and May being May, she kept interrupting me when we are NOT on the swot analysis with her very-sarcastic-and-over-used line of "yess. i can see how this is gonna help us in our project."
wahaha.

dont worry May; i am still a fan of urs. wahaha.

and sabby is a rabbi. not the jewish rabbi but a rabb-y. lmao. she and her pr laughter. she's a gonecase i tell u.

and dont worry sabby, i am still one of ur biggest fans. wahaha.

and there's the telepathic duo: jiayin and jason. wahahaha.

and sonia and i kept laughing. like laugh laugh laugh.

the end. lmao.

see? i told u i havent been doin work. aaaaargh.

wait. Ms Ng says in a media advisory, u gotta centralised the The End.

so I say:

-THE END-

com nerd.

2006-05-12T00:05:00.001-07:00

time for an update!

been so busy lately. but the busy-ness is like a different kind of busy-ness.
like the kind where u know what u are doin but at the same time u dont really know wad u are doin. and because of that, time flies just like. like.....woooOOoooo. and before u know it, it's 2am.
that happens to me everyday. every single day.

ppl say tt the best time to sleep is between 10pm to 2am. tt's when ur skin cells are like nourished and renewed or somethin along tt line.

well, i havent been doin lotsa of renewal i guess. lol.

so let's see.

hmmm. watched When A Stranger Calls sometime ago. cant rmb which day!

a horror-goer i am, i like it. i dont really love it but i like it. the thrill i get. wahahaha.
and sonia was like siao. like she screamed for no reason. and i jumped on my seat for no reason.
and jeslynn is like...neutral.

wahaha.

hmmm. wad else.

Spec Dip final prj is takin a lot of time. but at least it's goin somewhere, so no complain. but still. time consuming!

and normal prj meetings...are all so fruitless. like what the hell. like really what the hell. like what the hell is happening. like what the hell are we doin this for and where are we headin.

*sigh*

worried i am.

and every day, i find myself doin nothin abt it. everyday, i get online till 2++ am. God knows wad i am doin online. cuz i myself dunno how come time passes just like tt. in a blink of an eye.

when i reached home, my mum called. tt's like half hour ago. (it's now midinight) and she said "Shar. dont lock the door ok. i'm watchin a midnight movie. will get home late."

lmao. even my mum has a life.
i do nothing!
bahhh.

my mum is like the teenager. and i'm the....well...the geeky one who always stay at home. stay in front of her computer screen for hours.

ramblingrambling.

i just had coffeebean. but i want starbucks. heh.

com nerd.

2006-05-12T00:05:00.000-07:00

time for an update!

been so busy lately. but the busy-ness is like a different kind of busy-ness.

like the kind where u know what u are doin but at the same time u dont really know wad u are doin. and because of that, time flies just like. like.....woooOOoooo. and before u know it, it's 2am.
that happens to me everyday. every single day.

ppl say tt the best time to sleep is between 10pm to 2am. tt's when ur skin cells are like nourished and renewed or somethin along tt line.

well, i havent been doin lotsa of renewal i guess. lol.

so let's see.

hmmm. watched When A Stranger Calls sometime ago. cant rmb which day!

a horror-goer i am, i like it. i dont really love it but i like it. the thrill i get. wahahaha.

and sonia was like siao. like she screamed for no reason. and i jumped on my seat for no reason.
and jeslynn is like...neutral.

wahaha.
hmmm. wad else.

ohhh i wanna watch Over The Hedge. i wanttttttt. the only cartoon show tt i wanna catch. lmao.

Spec Dip final prj is takin a lot of time. but at least it's goin somewhere, so no complain. but still. time consuming!

and normal prj meetings...are all so fruitless. like what the hell. like really what the hell. like what the hell is happening. like what the hell are we doin this for and where are we headin.

*sigh*

worried i am.

and every day, i find myself doin nothin abt it. everyday, i get online till 2++ am. God knows wad i am doin online. cuz i myself dunno how the time passes just like tt. in a blink of an eye.

when i reached home, my mum called. tt's like half hour ago. (it's now midinight) and she said "Shar. dont lock the door ok. i'm watchin a midnight movie. will get home late."

lmao. even my mum has a life.

i do nothing!

bahhh.

my mum is like the teenager. and i'm the....well...the geeky one who always stay at home. stay in front of her computer screen for hours.

ramblingrambling.
i want starbucks. heh.

i need sleep

2006-05-01T01:45:00.000-07:00

my blog is dead.

arrrg.

i am so deprived of sleep. like really deprived.

not tt i have things to do or anythin. well, mainly i do have things to do but i know like when to sleep and stuff but the thing is, i cant slp.

and that's really terrible.

i will lay in bed for hours. thinking abt nothing. just wishin i will just go to slp. but of course a wish is not a wish if there's no magic.

so it sucks.

today is whoaaaaaa.

went to mt faber for my weekend job. it's awesomeeee.

but friggin tiring. by the time i signed out from work at 5, my legs could practically break into two. like the ache is so so so bad.

not to mention i had to go out after that. more walkin and more standin. bah.

so today i saw triplets, i saw twins and cute cute babies. and a lot of *swoons* angmohs. wahahahahaha. they are like so cute. and i got the nerve to ask the parent if i could take photo with her daughter. goodness gracious. all u needed was just one look at them and u will automatically fall in love with them. or maybe just the fact i love kids. lol.

the place is like filled with tourists.

Ideas in Action presentation at Suntec Convention Centre on Friday was a big screwed up. not us. just that wilson guy. what a bitch. like seriously.

i mean...pick on somebody his own size. or his own gender. : lmao. seriously, that guy needs help. good for him, his comments demoralised us. wtf.

and Ms Ng was nice nice nice to treat us lunch. like 10 students. bonkers man.

so that was friday.

and saturday was also a run about day: when to granny's, did my cousin's algebra homework (lol) rush back home. and caught Aquamarine.

i likeeeee. Chick Flick. tt's why i like. wahahhaha.

and there's like so many good good good upcoming movies! aaaaargh. busy busy busy.

and i have a whole stack of notes to read. Media in Asia. Spec Dip. *sigh*

and the fact tt i cant slp aint helping.

zouk zouk and zouk

2006-04-22T03:20:00.000-07:00

these few days have been hell.

like wayyyy hell.

Wednesday

Lessons as per normal. Queensway. with sonia and jy. to find belt. lol. Got home. Slept for like 2.5 hours. Got up and got ready. Thanks to Aizat who said that I can accompany his fren - Syed - instead for the Nokia Party at Zouk where Click Five was gonna perform.

met Syed in the train. checked out Tiong Bahru Plaza for like ten min (lol) and cabbed down to Zouk.

woots.

he had the VIP tickets. compared to his two other coursemates. COOLNESS.

and man was the place packed! like the whole floor is just covered with people. so thank goodness for the VIP area or we wouldnt even be on the floor as The Click Five.

and it was hilarous at first cuz the emcee went "and let's welcome The Click Five".

and Shan Wee got onstage and i tot that was the Joey the drummer! he was like wearin a suit with Click Five hairstyle! i thought he looked like an idiot. wahahahha.

some lucky ppl got backstage passes. lucky them.

and Click Five!!! woooooots. they performed like ten songs! TEN SONGS.

and i was standing like right infront of Eric. not like right in front but like infront of him! but like 3metres away. wahaha.

but it's like i know he can see me clearly and stuff cuz i was on a platform and there were times when he would raise his hand and point. well, i convinced myself that he was pointing at me! but Syed had to spoil it and said that he was just pointing at the camera (which was a metre in front of me) and not me.
well yea maybe. wahahha. hallucination. but there was one time, i was sure he pointed at me. cuz like his eyes met mine. bahhhh. maybe parallax error but hey! what are the chances man. i was like in front of him! technically. wahhaa. and i really really believe his pointed at me that one time. i felt the connection. strange.

and i was all hyped up before cuz he said we could go backstage but turned out that i dunno wad really happened but no...no backstage for us. boo. no photos with eric and joey. boo.

so off we went to eat.
food food food. had a late dinner and home.

bottomline: nice person he is. *grins*

Thursday

Zouk zouk zouk again. Shafiq gave Sonia his mtvasia singapore party invites to sonia which sonia gave me. where both of them are not gonna attend to it. >.<

met Jeslynn and made our way there. missed the zouk bus stop and in the end, we still gotta cab down. wth. lol.

and guess what. we couldnt go in. like cuz the party was for 18 and above and jeslynn wasnt 18! bahhhh!

and the woman was like "no id cannot enter." slap her face la.

and there were some other "rejects" also before us and after us. haha.

so we went back to Tiong Bahru plaza to eat. well, Jeslynn did the eating. lol. i had my milkshake. wheeee. and Jeslynn is like a small little girl. lol.

so then had this phone fiesty with the other person on the line.

and thank you jeslynn for stayin on till like 930! *grins*

met Daryl.

and guess where we went.

Zouk. wth.

but it was like the bar corner. so whatever.

and there were his friends. bish. i hate these kinda shit but he's like always so busy so exception i guess.

and an actress and an actor. Some person called Carol Tham and some guy who acts in True Files i think. they were okay. i guess.

and dude. i had like 4 glasses of Black Label. like wooooozy i was after the 3rd glass. and that's like the most i have drank.

and that guy is so fucked up. like he was suppose to send me home before 12. but it ends up tt we left the place at abt 1.30am and yes i was pissed off and i think he was pissed off too.

so like it was 1.55 when i stepped into the hse.

and i felt so bad. so so so bad. like my parents was up. and mummy called me like 5, 6 times and i didnt answer cuz i was too afraid to answer the phone. and she left me like 4 sms-es. even though my mum is not really a big fan of text messaging. but at least i replied to her texts.

but i still felt...i dunno. like my mum is still like slightly sick and i've been home late for the past two nights. and that she was like worried sick. and i was wondering if she could smell the alcohol of me. i mean like 4 glasses of whiskey? eugh eugh eugh.

i feel so....grrrr.

so today. i went home straight after school. even though i was suppose to meet a friend. and made up for my sleep. woke up, made a sandwich and ate on my bed.

and amazing race. wheeee.

and then back to my bedroom and guess wad i found on my bed?

A COCKROACH.

and i was like screaming and wondering how to get it off. and it did go off and now i feel filthy. WTF la. my room is clean ok! except for the fact that i always eat on my bed.

BUT WHERE THE HELL DID IT come from! aaaargh.
i am so angry.

and disgusted.

lol

Click Five concert

2006-04-16T03:25:00.000-07:00

so i was early this time round! like we were supposed to meet at 245 but i came at 240! and everyone else was at least 20 min late! grrr.

brr. it's cold in here.

ok. OFP. lol.

So Click Five concert was much much better than I expected.

was last minute listenin to their CD while i was gettin dressed and stuff and i was thinkin: hey their stuff aint that bad.

and after the sixth or seventh song or somethin, the songs were...mediocre. lol.

so anyways. back to Indoor Stadium. All was a frenzy at first. The queue and stuff. And it was good to see some of Pussymao members. it's been some time!

And the whole thing kicked off with the Hollaback Crew Dance Competition.

weird enough, i experienced this huge pang of jealousy. or maybe it's jealousy. i dunno which. anyways it was like...an.."it could be me performing." "it could be me performin right there and then on that wide stage infront of at least 1000 people."maybe if only i had put in more effort in the previous dance sessions. then we could have made it to the finals! -sighs-

but whatever. Half the dance groups suck. gee. okay la...overstatement.

and poor Mystique! i really thought they shud have gotten third at least! for their creativity. and all their costumes must have cost a bomb. tsk tsk.

speakin of bombs...lol. okay i cant say it on here. but aizat's comments were like funny la. Jy and I just burst out laughing.

oh. and ryan grew chubbier. LOL.

anyways. on a lighter note. Click Five rocks. so cute! especially the lead singer. like so so so cute! like nerd cute! and the drummer...the way he drums! friggin hot! HOTNESS.

so. no complains!

and it was a 4/5 Power Peas outing after that! woots. Lau Pa Sat.
sabby shud have come la! SABBY WHERE ART THOU! boo hoo.

shared satay. roti john for me. yum yum. aizat and his "Wonderful Mixed Vegetable Rice".
LMAO. it was fun while it lasted though.

and aizat is soooo in love with sonia. SABBY ARE U READIN THIS. lol.

okay tired!

school in one day! i become more tired when i think of that.

no stationery.
no bag.
no file.

how can i even go to school!

and i cant even sleep at proper times! like i sleep at 3 or 4 or 5. in the morning! the longest i went was 530! woots. i'm nuts.

so tell me. how to go to school!

go bang a tree. bish.

the week.

2006-04-14T16:58:00.000-07:00

This week is like a total holiday for me.

nothing but goin out. nothing but slackin arnd.

Monday

shoot the Channel U thingy for Weiliang's grp. my + sonia + wanlin 's 5seconds of fame. lol.

Tuesday

Power Peas Day. Finally. After like 5 weeks! we were deciding and deciding and finally we decided on having sushi buffet.

HOLY AWESOME. i love sushi. it was hilarious. it would be great if sonia had joined us earlier! SONIA WHERE ART THOU?

anyways. we had our rounds of sushi... 30+++ plates in total. 4 ppl. yes we are gluttons. and there was the taupok craze.

it was nice the first time u eat it but after a while, it gets too sweet for ur tastebuds. and it's just bloody awful. and we had piles of it. and we didnt even order that in the first place!

and placin our taupok on the conveyor belt thingy...or in aizat's words - escalator. just like his pi-lates. wahaha.

yes it's unhygenic but we didnt have a choice and it's not our fault in the first place!

but it was fun while it lasted. full to the brim.

and starbucks. only we didnt get anythin. except sonia.

and THERE WERE LOTS TO DO yea. riiiiight.

and sonia was on an eating mode and she had a hotdog.

that's when i felt like i wanted to work at Dairy QUeen.

and the main reason why i wanted to work there is NOT because i wanna be linked to Kyle. tt's just plain ridiculous. lol.

but then again, i can be quite ridiculous. i said can be. that doesnt necessarily mean i am!

ramblings. lol.

and had ice cream. bravissimo! or however u spell it. i lurrrrve.

Wednesday

Spent the whole friggin day at home. Finally! was supposed to go out with Debbie Deb Deb but i cancelled like two hours before it. i think she's slightly unhappy abt tt. eugh. aaargh. and she didnt reply smses after that. sigh.

but i felt so sick after all the sushi i ate the day before and the day was cloudy and i was too lazy to get dressed up or anything.

and i ate the whole day. like 6 pieces of bread; some with peanut butter, some with butter, some with cheese. a pack of m&ms. a packet of beehoon from the indian stall. a packet of potato chips. a packet of Famous Amos cookies.
throughout the whole day. while readin my book. and while watchin reruns of Gilmore Girls and Oprah.

tt's a lot i tell you. i feel like a glutton.

Thurdays

ms kwa's treat. ms kwa's treat. wahahahha. there were may + jiaying + sonia + aizat + sabby + sarah + me. oh, not forgetting Ms Kwa herself.

Had dinner at Breeks at Marina Square. nice nice nice chicken. sucky suck suck mash potatoes. but it's still potatoes. so yay.

and off we went to Andersons Ice Cream.

wad did we have? family fondle? i beg ur pardon..family fondue. lol. it was great fun eating them. yummy yum yum. and sarah had chocolate all over her face. wahahhaa.

and sonia had chocolate all over her teeth. wahahahaha.

it was waaaaay awesome.

and i felt friggin full after that. WONDERFUL. yay.

and then here i am still up. and it's 4.50 am. how screwed up can my clock go? luckily beth is on msn. otherwise God knows wad i would have been doin.

and maybe...just maybe, i know why i am still up and still high.

okay partly Beth. but besides that...well, i really have to say...*swoons*. (sonia! *wink wink* lol)

and i love Autumn Monologue by From Autumn To Ashes.

and THE GIRL SOUND LIKE ME OKAY.

i have 3 ppl sayin that. i shall collect all the people who had the same view as Sadiqin....the sole founder of sayin the magic line: the girl really sounds like you.

obviously i was skeptical at first. and since it's the hols, i recorded my voice and sang to that song and HELL YEAH.

and i'm sooooo addicted to that song.

i just love it. and yes i am a little obssessed. to that song. lol.

HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY PPL. i have no idea what Good Friday is to be honest. : yes, shame on me.

3 more days to school. eugh eugh eugh.

What Sign Is Your True Love

2006-04-14T05:10:00.000-07:00

Your True Love Is a Taurus

Why you'll love a Taurus:
Romantic and sentimental, a Taurus can provide you with the security you need.And you both share a fondness for the finest things, from great food to luxury vacations.
Why a Taurus will love you:
You have the honesty and direct approach that down to earth Taurus desires.And enough elegance to show a Taurus a few new decadent delights!

What Sign Is Your True Love?

autumn to ashes.

2006-04-09T22:14:00.000-07:00

today was totally hilarious!

who would have thought my last day at work would be tearful...nah-uh, not a sad one but one with total laughter.

get to wear slippers and shorts today since it was just like packin stuff up to send to the warehouse. nothing more i would love to wear.

so when i got into the shop, my aunt was already there with my colleague. and that was the third time tt i saw her.

but by the look we're talkin and laughin, it's as if we were childhood frens.

arrived at 10 and by 10.10 we were all eating lunch. LUNCH AT 10.10!! which crazy persons would do tt.

and then back to the shop. i did the paperwork, aunt did the computer, and colleague packed stuff up.

and then she walked up to me, turned around and asked "eh my shirt torn ar?"

and i burst out laughin. and she explained how she bent down to pick up the stuff and heard a "teaaaaaaaaar".

haha! and she's damn thin for goodness sake. and she looks 15 when she's like 20!
and we're both taureans!

and she called me kerek (errr....pronounced as kerrrr-rack. lol) and i call her selenge.
nothing more suitable than a crazy person workin with a selenge person.

and we just couldnt stop laughin the whole day.

and it was rather relaxing at work.

and there was this technician (my old crush! whom i so dont like anymore) and we were like giggling when he approached the door and pretended we didnt see him cuz we were like soooo dont like him. he's so full of himself. eew eww eww. always talkin abt himself and flirting with me when he has like 5kids! and he's givin me the perception tt he's like still a bachelor. so gross la.

and there's my wrestling voice antics which made both my aunt and yati laughed. and my all-of-a-sudden dance moves.

and Miss Singapore Universe sucked to the core. it's....plainly horrendous.

and woots. love conversations with my mum on sundays. well. certain sundays. and this time, over fries and nuggets. =)

and lately, i am suffering from insomnia. like really bad ones.

like on fri nite..i couldnt sleep at all, and finally fall aslp at 3.45 am. and had to wake up at 7am to go to st margaret's sec to promote our sch.

and then i got home at 6pm. fell aslp at 630pm on a sat evenin and woke up at 230am on a sunday morning.

com com com. love conversations with. she rocks. off com at 5am on a sun morning. and woke up at 830am to go to work.

and here i am now! still awake. thank God!

st marg was okay...there were still ppl who actually ignores me when i'm like "want a school of business brochure?" it's horrible. maybe i look horrifyin or somethin.

but nothin beats the experience at fuhua sec. i was goin "hi. SB brochure?" and this girl suddenly opened up a magazine and covered her face!

i was so stunned. and then i and jy just burst out laughin. like wtf. i'm not gonna eat all u kids. siao ar.

watched The Producers yesterday. really not my type of show. but it's lame funny. so whatever. 2.2 out of five. hah.

apprentice soon! rebeccarebeccarebeccarebecca.

but i think the guy will win.

so i was introduced to this band called Autumn to Ashes. and there's this monologue thing where they have a guest who sings and she sounded like me.

i was like nooooooo when sadiqin said tt. and when i heard it a couple more times, i was hell yeah!

rocks.

bad day.

2006-04-06T21:13:00.000-07:00

Today is bad day.

No wonder i am listening to Bad Day by Daniel Powter.

I'm not only listening to it, i am SINGING to it.

eugh.

started out rough with the SAS thing. gosh. i soooo want backpacking. or psychology at least.

in the end i settled with Effective Logic In Arguments.

and like what the fuck is that man.

and in the evening time, i got Effective Speaking Skills.

and i'm like...beats the first one.

i mean, tt's OC man. and i can speak. but at least Constance is teachin. wahaha. and james said it's slack.

anyways, THANK YOU NURUL FOR HELPIN ME REGISTER.

u made a good REGISTER-ER. lol.

u would have made a better one if only backpackin was available.

shit ass.

i feel nasty today.

not as in doin nasty things but i feel...in a bad bad bad mood.

wth.

i mean everythin is perfectly fine (except friggin gems).

and i'm gonna hear myself on the radio commercial snippet soon.

and i had my time with...yepp. she makes me smile.

and there's him whom i find so easy to talk to.

and i saw my granny and she's doin quite well.

oh, my aunt called me and gave me ticked off sayin i shouldnt sign things anyhow.

cuz now she is gonna have to do more work since the invoice is missing. plus the shop at the museum is closing completely.

but in the end she said "it's ok" though i know it's not really okay. but my aunt is always tryin to be nice.

oh. and i went to school just now to realise the M Drive is wiped out. and i have a very impt document in there. not school related. and that's why it's very important. lol.
gosh i was like DEVASTATED. it's so wth. sigh.

i still cant figure what the hell is wrong with me.

My Belly Button Is Bleeding

2006-04-05T11:14:00.000-07:00

A lot of things have been happening.

and i just realised this holiday, i've been very dependable on some people.
some people.

and it crush me to pieces when i dont get to...well nvm tt.

Hollaback Crew has been fun. Things happen for a reason. :D

at least we get tix to Click Five.

so i got a phone call yesterday from Power98.

and i looked at the idd caller and i went WTH. why would they call me?

and Sebastian (the dj) asked me whether he could ask me some questions and the answers will be placed on the radio commercials.

friggin cool.

ok whatever.

so whatever.

hmm. my belly button bled yesterday.

like for no friggin reason.

so i was talkin to beth and she was tellin me she had cramps and i was like "i'll tell the cramps to go away" and in the end i had a painful jolt at my stomach and i was thinking like wth.
so i went on to rub my stomach and boom...bloody on my fingers. i almost freaked out.
and it was ouchy ouch ouch.

and i wanted to tell my mum. but she was makin a sandwich and i didnt want her to lose her appetite. making a sandwich at 12am. haha.

hmmm. wad else?

oh, met aaron. i think he's grown cuter. but i'm still not attracted to him. how do i say it! ugh. this is annoying.

smart duty! gonna bathe!

The Hills Have Eyes

2006-03-28T21:15:00.000-08:00

crash crash crash.

dance dance dance.

dontdontdontdont stop the beat. cantcantcant control the beat. peapeapeaple in the street.

goin nuts. tired tired tired.

semis in three days! we have to have to make it. i dont bloody care la.

got my outfitter jeans yesterday! woots woots woots.

and i wear a size 0. i was like laughin like mad when i got it. size 0! gosh!

that's like, in the words of the geek boy in Beauty and the Geek, like you dont exist. it's like a negative!

lol. surprises.

watched The Hills Have Eyes on sat.

i never wanted to watch that. i just knew that it was....not gonna be somethin i like.

the same storyline as Wrong Turn (starrin Eliza Dushku).

only this one involves family instead of friends. and well...it's friggin more gory.

i hate it.

somewhere in the middle of the plots, these beasts went to hunt down the trailer and two of them sorta rape this teenage girl.

gosh i never felt so mad in a cinema before. i was like biting my finger so i wont say the "f" word and i was like breathing heavily.

the pain in her eyes. fucking beasts. it's so inhumane.

and how they burn people alive.

i know it's just a movie but gosh, was it a painful sight. really painful.

i was still seethin in anger by the end of it.

so yesterday was my last day at work. no more job for me. that means no more shoppin money. sheesh. that sucks. oh and noone to pay for my handphone bill.

timing sucks. just when i told my dad last month that he need not give me any more money unless i need it.

just when i thought i can be independent. i mean u're goin to be 19 and u are askin parents for money?

i feel...weird.

so now, i have no bloody idea what to do.

boy, am i screwed.

hah.

oh, and go get myspace people. it's so amazing. all these new talents who actually make listen-able music. some even have fantastic music i tell you. i have no clue where they find me from but they were addin me and stuff and it was just plain cool. friggin awesome! the thing that keeps me goin at the moment. hahahaha. and of course...weird messages from weird ppl making me laugh. hahahaha.

MTV Fashionably Loud Party

2006-03-23T11:59:00.000-08:00

MTV Fashionably Loud Party was cooooooooooooooooool.

sweeeeeet.

it wasnt exactly what i expected but it was okay.

and there were really some nice german guys there. they actually let me and sonia go in front of them!

and that first guy who talked to me...gosh...he was hot hot hot. and we were talkin! abt height. lol. i think he thinks i'm puny. wuhauhauhauhua.

and then this caucasian girl came along and spoiled the whole thing. wuhauhauhaua.

"i'm Alessandra".

bish.

so whatever. and Son said she looks like Nicole from ANTM. wahaha. a lil maybe. the lips!

and sonia and i got close to the stage when this other german guys let us go in front of them.

they are like friggin tall la.

and the models...they arent...i dunno. dont seem professional to me. like at all.

and jeslynn and molar...i mean mala were hilarious. gosh are they crazy. and yes they were great company.

some corny lines:
"the way sonia drinks is so hot." - mala

well there were lots but i cant rmb. haha.

so there were the german guys. hot hot hot. the guy in red shirt. ooh! and he talked to me! ooh!

and then there's this weird caucasian girl who kept staring at me. intimidating. and she made her way and stood beside me halfway thru the show and we stared at each other for like 5 seconds.

wayyyy weird.

and then there was the "is he sebastian from simple plan" case. all sonia's fault la.

and that vince guy from the dating show (i cant remember the title but it's on wednesdays) is such a friggin bastard.
"oooh we're from placebo!"
freak ur ass mate.

gosh i need to talk to char. i was cold the previous time. sigh. where is char.

good good day.

2006-03-21T13:13:00.000-08:00

Today is a good day.

Today is a good good day.

Today is the first day where i slept in late.

Woke up at 12.30pm , on the radio, text Sebastian and went back to bed again.

(oh, use ur mouse to scroll down. u know that thing in the middle.) :P

And then i realised it wasnt Sebastian on the radio. And Mario text-ed me back saying "hey it's mario. Seb's doin 5 to 9."

and we exchanged like 4 messages. super cool la. he's in a good good mood maybe. haha. though Mario text me saying he's hungry. lmao.

and it was a sms frenzy on the bed. sabby. aizat. hahaha. damn funny la.

and today is a good good day. yes i know i said that already.

i called up the customer service for my internet thingy and everythin is settled and hopefully, all can work today.

and mum put a "love you" at the end of her sms again, telling me to buy detergent.

and it's been good cuz i signed up for myspace. The Veronicas rocks la.

and when i woke up today, i remembered my dream. that is weird cuz i have dreamless nights.

but i remembered it super clearly. and it involves....(this is even weirder) paris hilton.

me and paris hilton.

just me and paris hilton.

and i dont even like....like paris all that much.

the content cant be told though.

but i think i know why i dreamt of that. well. things do happen for a reason. maybe cuz i am longing for char. i miss char. so much. nv really felt anything like it. it's all so surreal.

even our name's alike. gosh.

and that is why i have to forget abt chaz. though i dont think i can. it'll just a leave scar somewhere. and scars..."and my scars remind me that the past is real."

well. it was more sur-real than real.

and now, i just checked Friendster Horoscope:

The Bottom Line

All that glitters is not gold. If it seems too good to be true today, then it is.

In Detail

You can come out now; it's finally safe. That means whatever you've been trying to forget about --in vain, judging by the quality of your sleep lately --will finally become no more than a distant memory. In the meantime, you can do yourself a tremendous favor by simply letting go of the anger and resentment you've been feeling --and what finer way to do just that than by taking yourself out for a ride, a shopping spree or a massage? A nice, long one. Do it to it.

it's so real that it's freaky. i wonder if beth is feelin the same way. oooooh.

need to get dress now.

Pussymao.

2006-03-18T23:11:00.000-08:00

So these past three days was all abt rehearsing for th Hollaback Crew thingy.

And yay... we got to the finals. rocks rocks rocks. there's a 40percent chance that we get to go to the finals.

and appear on MTV! and get to meet CLICK FIVE.

how frigging awesome is that man?!

all we need to do now is WORK IT OUT.

PUSSYMAO can MEOW!

woots.

and today is a good good day. i say.

well, it's all been goin well.

Pussymao got into semis. I got my beanie and that camo t-shirt Avril has!

and that auntie in the shop was super funny la. and aizat kept flirting with her. wuhauhauhauhua.

and i really wanted to get that grey bermudas from peninsula.

what happened was they didnt have a nets machine or a credit card machine.

so i was like sheesh...and the girl gave me direction for the nearest ATM.

and that was when aizat and i went to the next shop and spent like 15min inside.

raffles city next and there was this cool cool shop. and i saw a card with just "kinky" on the cover and it reminds me of Bethsaida. sweeeeet.

and when we split, aizat msged me and said "that girl in peninsula already crying with your bermudas."

wuhauhuahuhhaua.

it's too ex for a berms anyways. but i likeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

took the bus home. and met my primary school friend in the bus! woots.

so cool la. but she was kinda blur when i called out her name. and then her expression went "ohhhhhh". lol.

and so i decided to stop by Shop and Save to get soda and guess who i saw?

yesssss....Oliver.

he was like goin off.

then when i was queueing up, he went to the next counter and helped out the girl at the cashier counter.

so he was like opposite me and i looked up and he raised his eyebrows at me to acknowledge me. woots!

and now i shall paint my room. finally right?

update

2006-03-17T08:42:00.000-08:00

So i'm suppose to be bloggin this on Monday night but was just too too busy busy.

it's all good.

i'm all smiles.

gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous.

i'm goin nuts.

so sunday!

i missed the last episode of Gilmore Girlssssss.....freak ass shit la.

stupid jam. otherwise i could have caught the last half hour or something. i'm furious yes. ugh. boo.

and then, turned my studyroom into a bedroom since my mum bought like new mattress.

since i was so-called tired, my mum decided she would help me out with the arrangements. woots.

i cleared up stuff and she wiped the bed. all the dust!

and it was great cuz it was like a mother-daughter bonding thing. me making fun of my mum, mum laughin at my jokes, pushing each other around.

kinda nice. :)

caught Underworld on Tuesday and it was oh-my-goodness. it's so violent. and the usher didnt check my IC! woots. hahahha.

but it was not too bad.

let's see if the rest of the week turns out not too bad as well. i'm gonna go back to sleep. morning.

charlotte

2006-03-12T02:24:00.000-08:00

and the world just crashed.

it's sad when u feel like u know that one person, and something crops up and that person is alien to you.

u cant understand. no matter how hard u try.

u try to put two and two together. but it burst into a million pieces all over again.

it's sad cuz the person who keeps you goin everyday and whom makes u smile is no longer able to do so. cuz another being has evolved within the person. which upsets you.

and worse still, that bloody person is so bloody ignorant and dont give a shit and give you the sense of "i dont care."

and my mum just walked into my room, glanced at my computer screen and asked "kenape nangis?"

and i just shook my head, saying "nothing" and "everythin's all right."
i cant tell her. i cant tell noone.

i can only tell myself. but then again, i cant really tell myself. cuz i am tryin to forget. i am tryin to forget the two months we shared.

Final Destination 3

2006-03-11T23:23:00.000-08:00

Finally Final Destination.

The horrifyin Final Destination 3. Frigging Daunting 3.

When i got out of the theatre i was wishin that i had never watched it.

it's bloody gruesome.

I was OMG-ing throughout the movie. well, not really but my mind kept sayin tt. and by the time the movie was over, i had tears in my eyes.

and i was like "oh shit man."

and 15 min after the movie, my eyes were still glistened with tears. i wasnt crying...i was just...horrified. very much. and shocked i guess. cuz i never come across such bad death experience and seeing all those inhumane things were...frightening.

and half hour after the movie, the images of how the victims got killed were still stuck in my head. includin the ones from FD 2.

and i was shivering throughout the movie. not really throughout, but after the rollercoaster disaster.

it was so...goodness.

and i wasnt shiverin because of the coldness. nope.

and i feel so sad for those bimbotic girls. they suffered the most. and they were sorta innocent. sigh.

and they used that phrase again! - What Doesnt Kill You Will Only Make You Stronger.
i never really noticed that phrase until Mr Chin used it in the CA 3 paper.

and that same phrase was also used in Grey's Anatomy.

some famous phrase i guess.

but it's kinda true. it's logical.

at least i caught the Final Destination trilogy. and i am proud to say i am a Final Destination fan. sorta. they are great movies, i have to say, no matter how gruesome.

still i find that the FD 3 shud be rated M18 insteard of NC16.

and yepp i gotta say FD 2 was my favourite. but i like all. kinda.

and got my spaghetti! yum yum yum.
got the kids' spaghetti meal. and Vik was teasin me.

well....18 right....1 X 8 = 8 means i am eight yrs old. haha.

and on the way home, while i was in the train, the train scene in FD 3 kept replayin in my mind. and while walkin home, i saw this barbwire (with lightbulbs) hanging on tree to tree and i was wonderin if it slips off, will it go around someone's neck and choke tt person and slide that person arnd like the scene where the sister almost got killed due to the horse draggin her round and round. and since light bulbs are something electrifyin, i was wonderin if it would explode or anythin and if the glass would stick to someone's face.
yes. imagination run wild.

and now i am tired.

and the FD 3 scenario is fading away.

thank goodness.

charlotte

2006-03-11T10:01:00.000-08:00

Manoel Barros

kids + shows

2006-03-08T23:48:00.000-08:00

Mum's weird.
so my mum sent me two smses today and both of them include a "love you" at the end of the message.
:
anyways, it was kinda nice. so whatever.

was workin just now and the primary two girls from Paya Lebar Methodist Girls School were visitin the museum.

they were all so cute and adorable. and some even look like 5 yr olds! so small la.

and they are all like smart and all and they talk to me and giggle giggle giggle.

and all the chatterin and screamin "how much is this?" "and this?"

and a couple called me auntie.

and i was like "hey. i'm not an auntie. i dont look like one."

and the bunch will giggle giggle giggle.

haha. cuteness.

and most of them bought an item...like marbles or bubbles and stuff.

which was seriously in my opinion, not worth a penny.

but kids being kids, they buy for the sake of buyin. have u felt tt before? i know i have. pressure to conform.

some were even snoopin arnd and mutterin "hmm wad shud i buy?" thinkin it is necessary to buy and just merely to not be different from anyone else cuz everyone is buyin something. kids dont like being different.

and boy was it chaotic.

but i liked every moment of it.

kids. u just gotta love them.

okay...tt sounds like tagline. haha.

and right now, if anythin is to go wrong after i graduate, i sorta have two jobs kinda secured.

i can always work with Mount Faber Leisure Group...and i can always leave it to my aunt to recommend me or somethin and anyways the staff coordinater executive there loves me so that shudnt be a problem.

and today, i was offered to work at the museum after i graduate. it's kinda like an unofficial kinda thingy but it was a nice gesture.

moving on to entertainment business.

so nigel barker is half sri lankan and half english.

and i think we would look so perfect together wont we?

wuhauhauahhaua. sharina barker. will still be S.B. ! woots.

and American Idol rocks la. i think this's the best season.

ayla is super tall and she sang Unwritten. love love love tt song. and that song has been on the American Top 40 chart for over a year la! wowness!
and melissa's got such a husky voice! nice-ness. she looks like a slightly bigger version of amanda bynes!
and lisa tucker looks better with curls!

cant wait for the guys tmr. they are so gonna rock it. elliotttt oooooo.

Sentosa

2006-03-07T23:15:00.000-08:00

Sentosa was better than I expected.

Aizat + Andrew + Sabby + Sonia + Timo + me.

Cable car. Volleyball. Volleyball. Frisbee. Kayaking. Volleyball again. Play with the sand. And chill chill chill.

Rocks. It was fun. And entertaining.

It started hot though.

And I grew tanner. Oh nooooooooooooooooooo. Gross gross gross.

And there was that funny uncle who called me selenge. Wad the hell la. His instructions were so unclear and he blamed me. Hmmph.

And then there were breasts in sands.

: haha.

Well. Today’s horoscope was something along the line that you would meet someone from the past.

And true enough, I did.

Met Gerald at Harbourfront. After dinner. It was like eh I know this guy kinda thingy and I met him again at the bus stop where we exchanged waves.

And in the bus, aaron text-ed me.

So it’s two instead of one. Wow.

gosh i have yet to watch last week's ANTM and American Idol and Beaty and The Geek.

i hafta waaaaaaaaatch.

i shall dream.

the cute pink car

2006-03-06T01:35:00.000-08:00

my cousin has a cute pink car.

my cousin has a cute pink car which made me wish that i have a cute pink car too.

anways, met jolene jiejie to get the cd which contains all the chinese new year pictures.

so many were snapped la!

too bad i didnt go for the reunion dinner.

i was late for 10 min! gosh! i really need to set my punctuality thingy. it's horrible and i felt horrible. but cousin jolene was nice nice! :D

sentosa in like 10 hours!

Simon Webbe

2006-03-03T23:55:00.000-08:00

TODAY ROCKS la. SUPER ROCKS.

day started rather slow...was supposed to watch Final Destination 3. but i was 20 min late. so by the time i reached Lido, it sorta already started so i was like forget it. Bryan wasnt too keen in watching a horror movie. so whatever.

and as usual, i couldnt make up my mind as to what to eat. for lunch. we had to walk thru one big round before i decided to settle for Taco Bell.

and then went off to meet Martin.

nawww....not that Martin who has a bike.

he barely talks to me anymore. boo.

anyways. got my mocha frappucino. happy happy happy.

martin is so cute la. so charming. very good with words. and he looks so much younger than the last time i saw him. which was 1.5 years ago. yeaaaa super long!

by 6.20, i had to go meet Flora.

didnt wanna leave but duty calls. :P

and flora damn funny la.

so we shop around for a lil while at Raffles City.

One shud never shop at Raffles City.

We entered Guess and within 5 minutes, each of us bought a handbag with a slide of our card.

within 5 minutes!

and we were squealing and squealing about how nice our own bags are! i think the sales girl was amused la.

but hey! we were super excited la. like little girls getting colourful lollipops.

after which we took a cab to zouk.

and flora was super excited la. lmao. she damn funny. "eh i am very excited now eh. like got butterfly in my stomach."

wuhauhuauahhaua.

so in we went into zouk.

SUPER COOL LA.

THE FOUNTAIN ROCKS.

and it's sooooooooooooo cool.

so to warm up stage, there was this bellydancer who performed some belly dancing.

it was okay and then it gets boring.

and then the next performance was some yoga thing. lukewarm i found it.

and Flora was so impatient la. "when is he coming out?"

lmao.

twenty min later...

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

HOT STUFF.

and he looks so smart with his button down shirt and coat.

and flora was SUPER EXCITED. wuahuhuauahauahua. it's hi-larious i tell you.

wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

and he's so friendly.

and he held my hand. woots.

and the next song, he squat right in front of me and sang to me!

*swoons*

GOSH.

and for the finale...he was saying all the girls can go onstage.

so there were like 5 girls and i was like shy. but then me being me, i was thinkin oh what the hell, might as well.

and woots. he sang to me again!

but i look damn stupid onstage la. like some dork tryin to sway to the music.

and at the end of the song...

well, he turned around and he kissed me on the cheek.

SIMON WEBBE KISSED ME ON THE CHEEK.

and then i motioned for a hug and he hugged me!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTS.

SUPER FRIGGIN COOL I TELL YOU.

and i think he kissed the other 4 girls too but who cares! i was the first one! :P

ahhhhhhh.

woots woots woots.

so it was like a veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy exhilarating.

martin guess bag and simon webbe.

what a way to kick start the hols. wheeeeeeee

TODAY ROCKS la. SUPER ROCKS.

day started rather slow...was supposed to watch Final Destination 3. but i was 20 min late. so by the time i reached Lido, it sorta already started so i was like forget it. Bryan wasnt too keen in watching a horror movie. so whatever.

and as usual, i couldnt make up my mind as to what to eat. for lunch. we had to walk thru one big round until i decided to settle for Taco Bell.

and then went off to meet Martin.

nawww....not that Martin who has a bike.

he barely talks to me anymore. boo.

anyways. got my mocha frappucino. happy happy happy.

martin is so cute la. so charming. very good with words. and he looks so much younger than the last time i saw him. which was 1.5 years ago. yeaaaa super long!

by 6.20, i had to go meet Flora.

didnt wanna leave but duty calls. :P

and flora damn funny la.

so we shop around for a lil while at Raffles City.

One shud never shop at Raffles City.

We entered Guess and within 5 minutes, each of us bought a handbag with a slide of our card.

within 5 minutes!

and we were squealing and squealing about how nice our own bags are! i think the sales girl was amused la.

but hey! we were super excited la. like little girls getting colourful lollipops.

after which we took a cab to zouk.

and flora was super excited la. lmao. she damn funny. "eh i am very excited now eh. like got butterfly in my stomach."

wuhauhuauahhaua.

so in we went into zouk.

SUPER COOL LA.

THE FOUNTAIN ROCKS.

and it's sooooooooooooo cool.

so to warm up stage, there was this bellydancer who performed some belly dancing.

it was okay and then it gets boring.

and then the next performance was some yoga thing. lukewarm i found it.

and Flora was so impatient la. "when is he coming out?"

lmao.

twenty min later...

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

HOT STUFF.

and he looks so smart with his button down shirt and coat.

wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

and he's so friendly.

and i he held my hand. woots.

and the next song, he squat right in front of me and sang to me!

*swoons*

GOSH.

and for the finale...he was saying all the girls can go onstage.

so there were like 5 girls and i was like shy. but then me being me, i was thinkin oh what the hell, might as well.

and woots. he sang to me again!

but i look damn stupid onstage la. like some dork tryin to sway to the music.

and at the end of the song...

well, he turned around and he kissed me on the cheek.

SIMON WEBBE KISSED ME ON THE CHEEK.

and then i motioned for a hug and he hugged me!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTS.

SUPER FRIGGIN COOL I TELL YOU.

and i think he kissed the other 4 girls too but who cares!

ahhhhhhh.

woots woots woots.

so it was like a veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy exhilarating.

martin guess bag and simon webbe.

what a way to kick start the hols. wheeeeeeee

post-exams.

2006-03-03T01:31:00.000-08:00

Finally. i feel like i can breathe.

the phase of mugging is all over. much to my relief. much to my waiting.

now, let us wait for the phase of the anticipation of the result.

Law was fine. pretty okay. and all i need is a 79 to get myself an A for Law. right. *cross fingers*

MOVING ON.

went to Marina Square and walked round and round and round.

got a top from Zara. woooooooo.

and it was sorta fun...and i get to spin spin spin. though i failed miserably.

sonia was hilarious. she kept laughin. at what i dunno.
wait...i do know what we laugh at. some times.

let all your hair down. and laugh out loud.

and then went to meet daddy for dinner.

and we had a funny and weird conversation.

after talkin about normal stuff...my dad asked me whether i have read the report about the girl who videocam herself and her boyfriend doin you-know-what on her mobile phone and unfortunately lost it. The next thing she knows, she's the star of the scene.

and i was like..."oh yes yes. i heard abt it somewhere." tt's me tryin to act intelligently. haha. right.

and his face was so serious that i was thinking "oh no...not again. he's not gonna remind me not to practise it or whatever is he?"

so my dad was sayin the disadvantages and trouble gadgets can cause and then he was sayin how the videoclip has been passin arnd and that he got it thru email.

and then he asked me about Paris Hilton.

and i was like...yeah i know her! not directly of course.

and he was talking about how her stuff got around the internet as well.

and i was noddin my head and sayin yepp i know.

and then he took me by surprise and asked, "how u know? u watched huh?"

and i was like WHAT. "nooooo. i read it on msn news."

gosh. it was just funny. and my dad looked normal...not stern or anything and i have a feeling...that even if he had asked me whether i had watched it and i didnt say anything, he wouldnt mind.

i dunno. it's just a hunch.

well...after all the advices he has given. this is really just plainnnnn weeeeeird.

and rushed home to catch idol.

ooooo. all the guys are so hot.

chris is damn hot hot hot! America, vote for him pls.

Holidayyys! HERE I COME.

wahoo!

after prmp paper.

2006-02-27T23:45:00.000-08:00

well. Prmp was scary. i covered 12 lectures on sunday itself. and by 1am, i could feel my brain cells goin into their ultimate burst mode.

and i felt like a glutton yesterday. ordered this couple combo from Pizza de France and ate it all to myself. fat fat fat.

but it was goooooooooooooood. i lurrrrrrve pepperoni pizza. and the delivery boy was cute. but he was shy. right, as if i would know. lol.

and get to watch Apprentice. favourite tv programmes should nv be missed. tt's my philosophy.

From the start of the Apprentice season 4, i always thought Clay was cute. and then yesterday...wham!

he said, "how i wish i could slap that guy's ass."

yes appalled. awww. wad a waste! he's so cute la!

but no harm is done. THere are cuter guys in this American Idol season. :P

And frigging stupid. Becky + Patrick + Stevie got out. nooooooooooooo.

Back to today.

dont like prmp.

and law. ugh. how to memorise! but i shall be law-yal. (loyal) wuahuahuhahua. okayy i am laughin at my own joke.

spent like half hour decidin where to go for lunch after the paper.

and we had a very interesting friendly argument. it's so hilarious. gosh. may may.

and got my hair cut.

i can barely tieeeeeeee my hair.

ugly ugly ugly ugly ugly ugly.

eww eww eww eww.

and i dont like the shape of the hair.

i want my old hair backkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

boohoo.

why does this always happen when i have my hair cut. sigh.

and then i visited my granny. after two months of not visitin her.

my grandma's funny. and it was great catchin up with my three little cousins.

and spoke malay like noone's business. some sort like tt. my cousin had to translate some of the english words spoken to me to my granny. i really need help with my malay! it's gotten so bad la.

i wanna watch moviesssssssssssss. let's catch somethin on thurs people!

anyways be law-yal aight! =)

Dance Dance

2006-02-24T01:22:00.000-08:00

Friday Horoscope for Taureans -
The Bottom Line
An unexpected event will give you a deep understanding about a beautiful tradition.

In Detail
For some reason, you've been thinking a lot lately about either going back to school on a regular basis or just taking a class or two that will add to your already impressive resume. Of course, anything that you can do to add to your skills is a good idea, but if you happen to be in the mood to do it, so much the better. So while you have both the enthusiasm and a good reason to do it, why not at least investigate?

Is that like true or wad? These few days, i've been dancing a lot. I mean like reallyyyyy a lot. Like everyday.
And i watched a lot of So You Think You Can Dance videos on the internet. And i feel so inspired. so this means something?

i dunno. i feel rather small when i watch all the videos though. they are so w-o-w.

AM was okay. very worried abt PRMP. cuz the whole of saturday is gone. sigh. and to study now...my brain is cluttered. i have to wash out all the AM elements first!

cant cant cant cant wait for thurs to be over.

Been listenin to NSync's No Strings Attached cd every night. And this morning too! So nice to dance to la. So i shud indirectly thank sonia for lendin it to me and not being able to return it yet. haha.

Veronicas.

2006-02-21T13:50:00.000-08:00

Start the day with The Veronicas.

Rocks rocks rocks rocks.

love'em.

i better start gettin ready. i'm lateeee for our study meeting. haha.

Friendster Horoscope

2006-02-21T12:56:00.000-08:00

Okayyy....Friendster Horoscope is like rather accurate:

The Bottom Line
An upcoming event will drain your financial resources but add to your education.

In Detail
Now is the time to let go of all the 'what ifs' you've been allowing to hold you back from doing exactly what you really want to do. You're just about guaranteed to be smart enough to only take well calculated risks, so whether it strikes you that this would be the perfect time to try sky diving, bungee jumping, telling that long-distance lover that you want them to come home now, or something equally precarious, if it feels right, do it. You can't win if you don't play.

And i'm goin off to meet the peas girls at coffee bean holland v to study. after which we MAY have Swensens.

And i am longing to talk to Charlie. And Mark.

gosh. i shall play then.

Partyworld + Shop + Oliver

2006-02-17T23:18:00.000-08:00

Went to Partyworld yesterday. I think morons work there. I mean seriously. And the service..,it's rather awful.

And they cheated our money! only 4 hours for 100++ for 9 ppl. wth right.

and somehow, the mood was low. But all's fine. Thanked Sabby for sponsoring us half the bill using her $50 voucher. woohoo.

So mummy gave me $90 today. And I spent $100.50 today.

just great. just when i made a pact with myself to save up and stop buyin clothes.

But once a girl goes out shoppin, there's no stoppin her i guess.

especially Debra. She practically bought one item from every shop. haha.

well, at least i have new shirts, earring and shorts. lucky closet.

And i had my Char Kuay Teow. niceeeeee.

Went to Habourfront to check out the revamped place. Everythin is new! and then the stuff looked limited and we took a bus down to Queensway where my shoppin began. Should have never gone there.

And deb told me droppin news.

but all's gonna be fine for her, i hope. Cuz i've been there and i've done that and it made a stronger person.

met Sonia to get my notes back.

and on the way home, passed the supermarket for fun. so i went pass the supermarket and then i made a u-turn.

oh yes...u all know why dont u. haha. oliver oliver.

decided to get orange juice and Oliver smiled and said "hello" as i approached the counter. and then we said bye to each other. arent we all so sweet? hahaha.

oh! and yesterday was an Oliver day too! wuhauhauuaua. cuz in the morning i went to the supermarket and when i saw Oliver i decided to get something (i cant rmb what. ooh!) and while he was scannin the stuff of the person in front of me, he raised his eyebrows at me to acknowledge me! woohoo! and then he said something but i had earphones stuck in my ears so i took it off and said "sorry?" and then he shook his head and said "nothing". aaah!

back to today.

and i took a good look at his name tag. it says: Oliver Parmintuan. Not Parmetisan. Parmintuan! sounds indonesian?? yet i dunno!!!

and i dropped my phone outside the supermarker. i dropped my phone!! and i sort of stunned and i just stood there saying "that did not just happen" to myself.

and then there was a scratch on the silver rim. there was a scratch! and it's not even one month old for goodness sake! my imperfect phone. sigh. shit la.

and home. and once again, i forgot to buy paintbrush so i think i will start paintin my wall on Monday or something.

the day where all the muggin begins.

cant wait for 2nd March to be over. yes?

for her.

2006-02-17T01:04:00.000-08:00

She told me to stay away from boys.

I'm not sure about that. But for her, i will and i shall try.

have a nice day.

2006-02-12T23:59:00.000-08:00

TVSM was great. though there were technical faults and stuff and the whole thing had to be dragged. poor Mr Loh. he looked so stressed!

and the morning was hilarious where me, jason, haz and charine were conversing with one another in click-clack-clock languages. damn funny la.

i think all in all, the tv production thingy was some sort of a success. even though i was like the only girl in the team. but who cares? i see at least a B+ coming. wuhauhauauhua. i'm so damn cocky. i shall just shut up. nahhh...i just hope we do get at least a 75 for this TV production CA thingy. must aim high right? *grins*

and james was nice cuz he gave me lots of Pocky and gave me a bite of the chocolate that Flora gave him.

And Timo was nice too cuz he gave me a bite of the chocolate that Flora gave him too.

And Flora was nice-nice cuz she gave me three bars of chocolates knowin that i am an ass for chocolates. woots. so nice right! *grinssss*

And Sonia was nice-nice too cuz she bought me a box of breadsticks cuz she knew i havent eaten the whole day. so nice right! *grinsss*

And Elsa was nice cuz she thanked me for helping her group.

And Flora's mum was really nice cuz she went out all the way to buy me dinner knowing i am Muslim and i couldnt eat the food that she cooked. And she cooked a lot of food. And she gave us angpows. and Flora's mum is just so nice la!

So was May's mum cuz she gave us angpows too.

But it's not abt tt. it's abt hanging out with the Yo-Yo Sisterhood.

And speaking of Yo-Yo Sisterhood...it's wonderful today cuz Sabby got in the first round of audition. woots woots. congrats! here's the star in becoming! :]

And today's nice too cuz Jimi msged me.

And it was nice also cuz me, may, everette and flora watched Sugar & Spice together. and i must say it's a dumb show. but i like. i love dumb shows. i wonder if i will ever grew out of it. i mean seriously.

no pun intended.

what a nice day!

Unofficial Last Day of School

2006-02-11T02:08:00.000-08:00

Friday friday.

Today is somewhat the last day of school.

sigh.

can u imagine...we are all gonna be in year 3 in like wad...2months? nooooooo.

sigh.

today was the last class for gems. so do i rejoice or wad?

i dont think so...cuz...there wont be any other lecturer whom i (and sonia, for tt matter) can mock from now on.

haha. shall not be mean now. he's a very nice person. seriously.

had my double cheeseburger. yum. i love.

and it's kinda weird cuz sonia knew i wanted to eat double cheese. and it became weirder when she realised that i know that she knew i wanted to eat double cheese when i'm not suppose to cuz she didnt say double cheese but i assume she knows i was eating double cheese.

confused already?

it's okay. i'm confused too.

and it was pitter-pattering. how nice.

and there's the umbrella case. how stupid can the two of us get?

haha.

ahhhhh. tvsm production tmr. bahhhh.

where have all the minus one on the p2p gone? i cant even find a decent instrumental song to download for tmr.

bish.

but all's good.

Bryan bought me The Veronicas cd. Bryan bought me The Veronicas cd.

so sweet la.

woots. woots. woots.

lovessss.

The Veronicas tt is.

i'm so happy.

and it cost a bloody 37 bucks. now i feel damn bad.

but he insisted. so good for me!

so i just watched Final Destination on tv.

lovesssss. Devon Sawa is so cute.

and Devon's such a hot name.

just like Trevor. yes? haahhaha.

eh wait. correction. yes yes? hahahha.

it's two. i shall slp. i have less than six hours to beautify my skin.

right.

hope all goes well tmr.

ugh. havent start EOF. bloody hell la. can Chin postpone the test to a later date or something. bish.

and dont even bother to mention the securing of participants for the MPP event. honestly, i think it's utterly rubbish. and to have it on V-day? gosh. less chances for us to get participants! what in the world were they thinkin? but of course...there must be a valid reason...

and good luck to sabby with her Singapore Idol audition.

cuz she's the STAR.

haha.

and goodnight to the world. ciao ci ciao.

In the Wrong.

2006-02-10T01:44:00.000-08:00

I think the problem with me is like...i talk without thinking?

this always happen when i'm holding a conversation with mum.

So last night, she got home at 11.45pm and i msged her earlier on to tell her to get me a bite or something.

And then she came home with a packet of bbq chicken rice. i love bbq chicken rice.

so i grumbled sayin "do u expect me to eat rice at 12? are u crazy?"

seriously i really dont know wad the big deal is.

so my mum tried to reason out sayin that it's not everyday that i eat rice at 12am.

guess wad?

in the end i still eat it.

and she was still being very nice. which doesnt really occur last time.

i think wad happens is that we all mature. i hope so. and that my mum and i are having more patience as we grow old.

i shall so not talk big to my mum next time.

cuz mummy knows best.

anyways, i received like a CPF letter...like an annual thing.

and i realised that my aunt's company have been distributing cpf thingy to my account every month even though i work on a part-time basis. how cool is that? hahaha.

so now i have like 700++ in my acct where 200 was earned solely in the year 2005.

all these numbers remind me of Finance. is Mr Chin teaching us any module next sem? doubt so. boo. i think he's funny in an unfunny way. haha.

Stupid Dog

2006-02-09T20:37:00.000-08:00

I was so fucking pissed off just now.

But now...i can say i am the happiest person in the world.

well....something along tt line.

So i was on the way home just now and was walking on the pathway and there was this woman with a dog.

So she was heading towards my direction, and me towards her.

so this dog of hers was like glaring at me and the walkway is kinda narrow and i will never take a chance nearing dogs.

I mean i cant touch dogs.

So i was hoping that this woman would actually shorten the leash and pull her dog to one side or something.

but that dumb ass woman did not and as i was nearin her, the dog was like growling at me.

so i was thinkin, "oh wad the hell. just walk and press myself against the wall."

but no...she took up the entire walkway with her stupid dog and i had to walk backwards...like practically retreating, with me facing her.

what the bloody fuck.

as if she didnt care. and she looked at me as if she owned the walkway. mother fucker la.

and the dog was like running towards me (with the leash tied of course) and then it barked at me.

as in BARK OUT LOUD.

i was taken by surprise that much that i actually screamed and scampered backwards.

i repeat: screamed and scampered backwards.

and no the woman did not apologize or anything. in fact, she has that smug look on her face.

and there were people looking at me! can u imagine how embarrassed i was??

frigging bloody fuckin asshole i tell u.

i mean, fine, go have dogs as ur pets but cant u be sensitive towards other ppl?

and not to mention that every morning, when i reached the first floor and walking under the shelter, i see pile/s of dogshit.

and the corners of the walls are like wet and yellowish indicating the dogs have peed there.

my goodness. wad the bloody hell right?

if they cant take care of their pets, dont have one! as bloody simple as that. are these ppl stupid and ignorant?

and boy was i seething with anger just now.

till i get home and watched the 7pm comedy, where i relaxed a bit.

friggers. yes i am bloody furious.

but all that anger is gone. when i see Charlie. it's amazing how one's world can turn with the existence of one person.

modules

2006-02-07T20:20:00.000-08:00

so TVSM wasnt as bad as i expected.

pretty much done with the script, camera script and all. i'm just crossing my fingers abt the filming. hope everythin goes well.

and balloting for Media in Asia just now. gosh. nerve-wrecking.

and yes Sonia. u saw it. it's a bad thing to do but hey, it's regarding my own interest right? so might as well.

hooray to us! - James, Flora, Me, and the Piggies. Hopefully Meihui's turns out fine.

shoes.

2006-02-06T02:10:00.000-08:00

so i finally got my new pair of shoes. but that doesnt mean i'm going to throw away my two-year-old Adidas Superstar Metal. i've grown so attached to it. and it's weird. it's like, i feel my mood being lifted when i wear it and when i look at it, though it's a lil off-colour and rather old.

wanted to get Converse but wasnt in the the Converse mood.

and wanted to get Adidas. but couldnt decide. i even wanted to get the very same one but they've cleared the Adidas Superstar Metal and filled it up with Adidas Superstar II. which is so not nice.

so i got myself Vans. off the wall. loves. and i spent 40 minin the shop deciding whether i should get the black or the brown one or the pink slip ins. i bet the sales person is like super annoyed and i kept apologizing and he kept saying it's okay. let's just hope he means it. haha.

So white is in this season.

i want to wear whiteeeeee. i wanttttt. but i cant. i can never pull of white. though it's such a pure colour. tt's quite sad on my behalf.

and i love that Fendi white dress. gosh. it's so pretty.

went to work just now. and i felt like having mash potatoes and my honey chicken pau for lunch so i walked over to the 7-11, which is quite secluded. there's like massage parlours and stuff and there's like always these Chinese girls (non-local i think) lingering around the area. yes, even on a Sunday. gosh.

so there were some old Brunei man lingering around the 7-11 and when i was trying to go into the store, i heard the man saying "So how much one hour?"

and the Chinese woman mumbled mumbled.

i couldnt believe i was hearing tt la. so friggin gross. and to think i am within the compound.

i just cant wait Saturday to be over. tt's when TVSM is done. i think tt's like the worse module ever. sigh.

waiting.

2006-02-05T00:50:00.000-08:00

These days have been crazy.

I remembered readin a monthly horoscope thingy abt love and stuff.

and boy are these things true.

and this makes me confuse.

because it's something different and not something common.

i shall tear away from this.

SO!

Sabby got on tv! wooooo. kenchang seh! hahaha.

on three different channels summore.

and congrats to us MMR ppl. great job done.

i know i have a lot to say but right now, i am just so not in the mood.

having been stood up to. well, sort of.

and not to mention there's Law and MPP to be done.

Law seems interesting but when there's no mood for it, nothing matters. no matter how interesting something can be.

cuz i am waiting for my interesting thing to show up.

ooooh. i love Hands Down by Dashboard Confessional. fits my everything now. only mine doesnt have a happy ending.

boys.

2006-02-02T02:01:00.000-08:00

HECTIC.

with school. with people. with everything.

First there's the New Year with my dad and my cousins and my never-ending aunts and uncles.

And then there's school.

What with the media conference, Gems presentation, Finance Report all due on the same bloody Friday.

so much for the festive season.

and then there's people.

with my colleague whom i had a huge huge crush on last time till he asked me out for lunch on Tuesday and now i find him boring.

so one down. lmao.

but i still find him cute. haha. i mean who can resist those brown eyes and cute wavy curls. gosh.

and then there's Oliver Parmetisan.

ooooh. he's so the boy-next-door. i assumed, tt is. gosh he looks so decent. but yea i know: dont judge a book by its cover.

and he smiled at me this morning! but i didnt smile back and looked away. and he was like...okay. and then eye contact. woots. gosh, it's damn bloody exciting.

so in the end, when i walked away from the paying counter which is two counters away from him, i gave him a grin and he smiled! like a real smile.

i wonder what's next.

and then there's him.

whom i've had a crush on since like...i dunno when.

*swoons*

and then there's her.

wow-ness.

Anyways.

met aizat's friend at Dover Mrt before me, jy, may and sabby went JP. Ranon. such a cool name! hilarious la.

And there was May getting annoyed abt not being able to get fetched at Jurong Point Boon Lay.
wuhauhaua.

and there i was crying in front of the TV set like some moronic ass. Top Model. Kyle. Eliminated.

Gosh. What the hell. That was so bloody unexpected. and there i was lying on the sofa saying "sorry bre. u're no good." until Tyra called out Bre's name and i was like "WHAT!"

friggin asshole.

and Jayla is just so so jealous of Kyle. That freak.

and then there's finance report which i just found out that there are a lot of missin points.

and it's two. just great.

New Year

2006-01-31T01:21:00.000-08:00

It’s 1.15 am.

And I just had a good scare.

Maybe I asked for it.

Watching Wrong Turn at midnight.

Bloody awesome show.

Something along the line of Final Destination.

I still remember how much I dick these type of movies back in secondary school.

Back to New Year.

Happy New Year everyone.

I had 14 ang pows.

Woots.

And I am bloody tired.

Yes. After shaking like everyone’s hands and saying "happy new year" to practically everybody.

And my eldest cousin gave me 15minute worth of advice.

and i'm like..."huh".

but of course, i pretended tt i very well know what he was talkin abt and will use it somehow.
which i may, mind u.

and i took photo with my avril-lookalike cousin.

woots.

i dont even know her name!

wait...i dunno any of my female cousins' names!

gosh.

i suck. yea.

and i dun even know i have a cousin called Chris and he has a3-yr-old daughter called Chloe who is super cute. and a son called C.J who's five.

which means i am a grand-aunt. gosh.

anyways. chloe is ultra adorable la. and the name! gosh. no name would suit her better.

i shall name my daughter Chloe or something.

right.

Gong Xi Fa Cai

2006-01-31T01:05:00.000-08:00

It’s 1.15 am.

And I just had a good scare.

Maybe I asked for it.

Watching Wrong Turn at midnight.

Bloody awesome show.

Something along the line of Final Destination.

I still remember how much I dick these type of movies back in secondary school.

Back to New Year.

Happy New Year everyone.

I had 14 ang pows.

Woots.

And I am bloody tired.

Yes. After shaking like everyone’s hands and saying "happy new year" to practically everybody.

And my eldest cousin gave me 15minute worth of advice.

and i'm like..."huh".

but of course, i pretended tt i very well know what he was talkin abt and will use it somehow.
which i may, mind u.

and i took photo with my avril-lookalike cousin.

woots.

i dont even know her name!

wait...i dunno any of my female cousins' names!
gosh.

i suck. yea.

and i dun even know i have a cousin called Chris and he has a daughter called Chloe who is super cute.

which means i am a grand-aunt. gosh.

The Veronicas - formed.

2006-01-27T11:56:00.000-08:00

Today was HI-larious.

:]

How everyday shud be.

and boy, Sonia has to stop imitating my expressions.

cuz she looks ridiculously stupid / funny / HI-larious.

which is not what i look like.

:P

So today sonia and i officially became The Veronicas.

freaks.

archie comics.

woots. Jess is super cool.

Lisa is super....erm...bubbles.

ooooh. bubbles. want more bubbles?

wuhauhuahua.

okayyy.

And as always, Gems class is hilarious.

You can choose who to be the presen-ta-tor.

i laughed out loud. like totally. and sonia was stifling her laugh.

gosh. i am so gonna miss Gems class after this sem.

honestly.

and the Gems class ended like 45 mins later. wth right? super cool la.

and off to the library we went. in hope to add some stuff to our Gems report. such geeks we are.
but we failed to be the geeks we wanted to be. cuz....

FINAL DESTINATION 3 IS COMING BACK.

and tt's like frigging awesome i tell you.

it's so.....YEAH MAN.

WHO WANNA WATCH!

thanks to the Carls' Jr webbie.

and then we watched The Veronicas' videos.

there...we have "me" being buoy-bah. "sonia" singing the whole song of Everything I'm Not. so selfish right. cant even give me one verse. hmmph.
and "i" have to be the back-up singer.

hahaha.

met Debbie Deb Deb.

and i think i talked non-stop. hahaha.

well. something sorta embarrassing happen. (To Andrew: DONT U DARE SAY IT ANDREW. :P)

Suntec. shoe shopping.

i didnt get any shoes tho. boo. been wanting to get shoes. but wasnt in the shoe-buying mood. dunno why.

Debra got her shoes though. ENVIOUS. haha.

finally had my Mushroom Swiss. Been like a month since i want to eat tt la but didnt get a chance too.

so now i am a happy walking mush-swiss.

Bought 2 cds.

woots.

Black Eyed Peas + Delta Goodrem.

Now...my cd list is shorter.
i am left with:
Backstreet Boys
Ashlee Simpson
Britney Spears Chaotic dvd.

i shall buy one every month.

And I found The Veronicas cd!!!

GOSH!
was on the verge of buying it la but it's like 30++.
ex. but it's so rare.
gosh. i SO have to buy it la.
sigh.
soon i guess. it's like must-have.

i mean like duh right...i am half of The Veronicas. wuhauhauuaha.
i shall sing my songs.

Backstreet Boys Concert - June 24th

2006-01-25T00:59:00.000-08:00

And there i was; in awe.

The Backstreet Boys came out and started the concert with a bang.

The Call.

Nice dance moves. well. typical Backstreet Boy dance moves. the way i like it. :D

woots.

nick is so cute.

nick is so fat.

nick looks like someone from the back. i cant say who. hehe.

and somewhere in the middle of the concert, i was waving wildly and screaming Nickkkkk.

and i dunno. he waved back. maybe at me. maybe at the whole sector.

but there is a chance that he was returning my wave.

dude. whatever makes me happy.

but seriously.

and thennnnnnn.

"Quit playing games with my heart..."

Brian jumped off the stage; jumped over the barricade and ran up the west wing.

Jiaying and I straight away ran towards the direction he was heading; sonia followed suit.

and woots.

WE SHOOK BRIAN'S HAND.

OUR RIGHT HANDS HAS BEEN TOUCHED BY A BACKSTREET BOY.

BY AN INTERNATIONAL STAR.

and that makes us THE BACKSTREET GIRLS.

lucky Jy to shake his hand first. and then me. and then sonia. and then i dunno who.

and Brian is so cute la. making goofy faces and doing funny moves.

i remembered how i have neutral feelings for Brian but heyyy, he totally changed my perception of him.

the wonders of meeting him LIVE and DIRECT.

anyways, he ran up to the west wing and he looked so bloody blur. so cute! he was like "huh. ok wait. what am i doing here."

and sonia, jy and i were the first three to shake his hand.

and then a whole lot of crowd. and he shook a couple more hands and the bloody security guard pushed us away and he scratched me la.

but i managed to shake brian's hand AGAIN since i was nearest to him then. he looked at me. He LOOKED at ME. gosh.

his hands are rough la. and firm. wow.

and then he went off and sonia, jy and i were screaming; plainly starstrucked.

and sonia was like why why why did brian came to this side.

wow. it's just for us. wow. so sweet!

there's more. ok later.

back to the concert.

and there's nick banging the drums with a very weird repetitve body movement and sonia and i burst out laughing.

so retarded la nick. same old.

and AJ looked like a thinner version of Undertaker. totally gothic i think. and super cool. and yes, his voice is bloody low.

and Howie is such a sweetheart. tt cute curly hair and tiny little dance moves. so smooth!

and he went to touch everyone's hand on the first row la. gosh. so nice!

and then somewhere in the beginning, i tot i had eye contact with brian. yea sure we were like 7m away from the stage but tt glint in his eyes set me wondering...

maybe he happened to looked at my direction.

gosh. this happens to be a Brian night!

and they sang All I Have To Give.

my all time favourite.

and they did the hat thing. always love it. i remembered rewinding the tape back and forth back and forth to learn those hat dance moves when i recorded the live in Orlando concert when i was in primary 6.

same old same old.

so nostalgic!

and then finish.

gosh. the sound system sucked to the core. couldnt hear wad they were saying. slow feedback and there were echoes.

and then off we went.

and somehow, we went out at the right timing and once out of the concert hall, we heard screaming and saw crowds of ppl and we being the ...ok dunno...we being the whatever, we ran down, dashing pass ppl and squeeze our way to the front near the barricade.

well honestly, i was just running for the sake of running and the sake of squeezing just to see them LIVE after a concert.

and sonia was right behind me! arent we good squeeze-ers. haha.

and then AJ came out.

he waved.

and then Kevin and Howie and Nick was the last.

didnt see Brian tho. the cute goofy Brian that i am infatuated with.

and the they went to the van and by tt time i didnt care and i ran off on my own. Sorry Sonia and Jy! gee.

and climbed over the barricade. sat on the barricade, waiting for the perfect moment to jumped down and dash towards their van.

and managed to dash upfront to the second van.

Kevin was inside. And he was just lookin around. and did a slight wave, i think.

and i was waving wildly at him, like a mad girl.

but hey, at least he saw me. wuauhuauahuha.

eeee. why kevin so dao! and he was the first to leave the stage after the last song la. boo!

and then the last van and brian brian brian.

me being me, i waved and waved and he smiled and waved back.

the security guard were just saying "move back" so what the hell and i was smiling and there were noone else except me and a couple of security guards.

the rest of the fans are like behind the barricade.

gosh! why werent sonia and jy with me! it would be much much cooler la!

anyways, i think i look like a freak la.

seriously.

so overall, it was good. Jy kept gyrating and singing and i was just standing there looking at them, watchin them.

unbelievable.

i mean, i have waited ten years for them. and they have arrived.

and there we were in the same room; breathing in the same oxygen.

i love brian. he's such a cutie.

ooooh.

i washed my right hand already.

but there will always be the stain of Brian.

My frigging goodness.

sure the concert is laidback and i didnt perspire and stuff but the thought of them performing right before my eyes is just so...amazing.

i shall look at all my BSB portfolios.

It’s 1 and I refuse to slp.

Rebecca

2006-01-22T23:35:00.000-08:00

I am so inspired after watching The Apprentice.

it's so...wow. it's so liberating.

i mean seriously.

gosh. i adore rebecca.

she actually put her ass on the line trying to protect toral; whom didnt quite a good job.

but she stood her ground.

why?

cuz of the friendship both of them had built.

i wish i had watched last week's epi.

i was crying by the time rebecca announced the two parties she wanna bring back to the boardroom cuz she was so adamant abt not bringin toral in, knowing tt toral will be fired if she does.

so sweet la!

of course it's unfair...

but it was toral who helped rebecca out and stuff in the hospital.

so sweet la! (yes i used the same line again i know. shut up and read)

ppl do anything for friends. well, a minority. how many rebeccas can u find?

i'm super impressed and i think i brought the house down when Trump fired another party.

rebecca is loyal.

yet rash.

sounds like someone i know.

America's Next Top Model

2006-01-22T22:00:00.000-08:00

today is fairly sueyyyy (sway)...gosh how do u spell tt word??

so my colleague came along at 12pm.

and he's so super talkative and he has so many stories to tell me that i couldnt really do anythng except sit there and stare and nod occasionally and say "really", "oh", "true true".

haha. but hey, i was listening k!

so i was flippin thru the pages of lime magazine and i casually asked him "do u watch america's next top model?"

and he blurted out the winner.

like when i asked him tt, he said, "ya. _____ is the winner."

and i just gaped at him.

purely gape. mouth hanging open and eyes widening tt kind. and my eyes were tearing and i exclaimed "you did not just say tt!" like umpteenth times.

and i was tearing.

and i was abt to cry.

gosh it was horrible.

yea sure he did not do it on purpose and he said "sorry la. i did not know u didnt know the winner. u dont have the 'i dunno the winner' stamped on ur face."

gosh.

i seriously could just defenestrate him right there and then.

sigh.

and of course i complained to sonia and jy.

and jy is now the sole survivor. i hope she lasts!

and then it rained.

and then i just ate the ben n jerrys ice cream in the fridge.

before tt i had a bag of potato chips and m&ms and nasi lemak.

eating day.

ok. apprentice.

love finance.

hey i was sincere.

Storyfest

2006-01-22T05:38:00.000-08:00

Storyfest went well. the whole of it. woohoo.

woots.

a big big congrats to may and jiaying.

wow. woots.

and dont forget to treat we yoyo-ders ok! wuhauauuahua.

and to the rest of the participants! it was all good! *grins*

and the dance went well i guess.

musicmakesyoulosecontrol musicmakesyoulosecontrol.

*wham* let's go. ah ah.

haha.

and uncertainty rocks to the max la.

and the skit was HI-larious.

and that kane guy was ultra good i must say. awesome.

and then sabby and i chomped on the leftover currypuffs. haha.

and sabby had to say tt to sriven. ahhhhh. i'm embarrassed la.

let me think...wad did she say...oh something like "must have sharina inside right." lmao la.

and that corp comm guy having a crush on sabby.

gross la. eww ewww.

and finance meeting.

wait a minute. what finance meeting? haha. eh, i really think mpp is totally redundant la.

aaaargghhh.

and then had Gelare. woots.

love love love. waffles. yummy yum yum.

and love the ambience. rocks.

and bryan walked me home.

and then i had a nap and dreamt of someone.

who i cant say.

Geisha shar

2006-01-19T22:57:00.000-08:00

Yay. Backstreet Boys are coming to town.

wow.

what i had wanted when i was like in primary 6.

my dearest Nickolas Gene Carter.

gosh, u shud see my whole collection of BSB stuff: from their pin-ups to their posters to their sticker book collection to their cards.
they were my world once back then. hahaha.

ryan, aizat, sonia, sabby, jy, and timo and i watched Memoirs of a Geisha.

woots! at Lido. (pronounced as Li-doooooo as said by Jy)

wuahuhauhuaua.

loves the show.

niceeeee. go watch it ppl.

look at this: Geisha-r

whatever makes me happy ok! haahha.

oh and the all the power peas member wore black tops today. like coincidentally!

even the half-existing member who doesnt know he is in. haha. coolness!

and then there's the rice cracker thing.

and jay.

the whole conversation on the table is hilarious.

and the mirror image thing with sonia with our utensils and even our legs.

ridiculous.

then it turned sorta serious when we touched the Tab Tv topic.

and then sonia started laughing on the way to the mrt station.

someone help that girl pls.

so these past few days have been a hell for my thighs.

poor thighs. i shall get it massaged soon.

but all's good cuz everything is goin great (i am talkin abt the dance) and ms kwa has to treat me sabby and sonia two meals. woohoo.

we are such shameless ppl.

my stomach has been throwin tantrums since last week.

and tt's not good cuz when it's tantrums come, it makes me feel really uncomfortable and i will have to cringe and hold back the groans.

it's like a live washing machine mixed with acidic and alkaline juice. anything but neutral.

i hope my stomach is at the right pH. otherwise i dunno wat.

Friday the 13th

2006-01-13T22:02:00.000-08:00

So today is Friday the 13th.

when i was walking home, i saw the moon behind all the clouds. it's like a classic movie kinda thing. like there's a full moon and then i saw a cat which could be represented as a wolf.

so i'm the vampire i guess.

is that cool or wad?

So today was:

it started out hilarious. with Customer Service Gems and stuff. it's HI-larious.

sonia is mean mean mean. she kept mocking our English-Deprived lecturer whose name we are quite unsure of.

conivence.

does anyone knows what tt means?

itellyouitellyou.

it's conVINIence.

and then there's the my tireds are leg.

please dont ask me what's that.

and Law lecture was....

and AM lecture was...

beyond describe-able.

and Storyfest rehearsal was even more undescribe-able.

gosh he smiled at me and did some weird eyebrow thing. yes i know u are jealous sabby.

and then off we went to practise our dance and so we went to level 5.

and it took us 3 classrooms to try our stuff and realised that's we were cursed. thank goodness the fourth classroom we tried was fine cuz Sabby the Genius found out that the classrooms had a conspiracy.

cuz of day and the date - the cause of our so-called mishaps.

after which aizat and sabby and i went to eat Long John and eat eat eat and look at furniture and electronics.

Thursday

Juggling thing with...

coolness.

and scary at the same time. i wanna learn how to juggle! boo!

and i suck i think.

SOme guy took my spot for my dancing act. boo.

there goes my chance to pay my tribute to Justin Timberlake.

and then dance practice.

and then wobble wobble wobble. hahaha.

and then shop shop shop with 4/5 of YoYo Sisterhood.

and here's a para dedicated to May: THANKS MAY FOR WAITING FOR TWO POINT FIVE HOURS AND HELPING US TO PLAYBACK THE MUSIC AND STUFF AKA BEING OUR SOUNDMAN/WOMAN AND THEN BRINGING US TO U2 FOR THE FANTA-FABULOUS SALE.

haha.

and shop shop shop. got two pants and a basic tee at a cheap cheap price.

oh we ate first. we were all hungry beings. and the kangkong was too salty and the uncle was nice enuf to exchange it for a new plate of kangkong.

rock-ness.

Wednesday

completed our two reports.
and yes. we yoyoders have been awarded the best prmp report. wuhauhauuahuaaua.

Tuesday

cant remember

Monday

goldfish memory.
oh.got back tvsm test. sucked to the core. what the hell la deh.

Oliver Parmetisan

2006-01-08T07:08:00.002-08:00

i have a thousand things to do.

i have to clean my room.

i have to buy paint and then paint my room.

i have to go for another round of grocery shopping.

i have to complete the dancesteps for Storyfest to the song Lose Control.

i have to choreograph another dance for SB day on thursday.

oh, please do support me. so there's this SB day thing on Thurs and i'm suppose to do a performance. at SB foyer. shud be during lunch time.

aaargh

i have to file my notes properly.

i have yet to buy Debra's birthday cum christmas present. which i haf no idea where to start. i mean what can i buy with 100 bucks. i need somethin grand. aaargh.

i have to get something for my colleague cuz she gave me a gift and i have this philosophy that if people give u something, u have to give something good in return to repay their kindness.

i have to transfer the speakers from my room to the living room.

anyways. went to sonia's hse to continue having prj discussions.

something is totally off with me this semester. i have to apologise to every of my grp members. i'm sorry i'm sorry.

yes i know i am late whether last minute stuff crop up or i'm just late but yes i'm terribly sorry. gosh i feel terrible.

and it was raining the whole day! non-stop! wow. i wish i was home the whole day.

had the "fiesco" in KFC. Jy was super funny and please do not go to the KFC at Admiralty. it sucks to the core.

and then may had to go and then jason went off and then we start practising Lose Control.

it was rather hilarious.

i hope all's good and everyone dont mind and stuff.

but hey i am surprised by their enthusiasm. coolness. :D

and sabby me and sonia went to watch top model. woots. i love kyle's new hair. and she is bloody tall la.

and then Simple Life Interns. what a stupid show.

and then home. and i was so stupid the wrong train and i stopped at yishun before i get to u-turn back. so stupid la. and that is the second time tt happened to me this week.

and i totally forgot there's gilmore girls at 6 and i was 35min late for the show.

and while i was walking home, it was raining super heavily and since the rain is titter-tattering, i started singing out loud.

i was listening to The Veronicas Mouth Shut. and the lyrics go like this:

I kept my mouth shut from the start
I guess I left you in the dark
You thought you knew me but you don't
You say you'll love me but you wont
When you find out who I am

and then the chorus goes like this:

'Cause I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was holding on to you
I tried so hard
To be the one I don't like who I've become

it's so sad. i would never want to be tt girl. sigh.

and i feel the pain in her voice. as if she's gone thru it.

maybe i'm just bein paranoid.

and then i saw this singh guy in the distance and i gave this weird face cuz from my point of view, he was like wearing a mask...you know, those kind dentists wear.

and when i was closer to him i saw that it was actually his beard, which is white and quite long.

and i laughed out loud, exclaiming how more stupid i can get.

watched my gilmore girls. love gilmore girls. i feel like i am rory.

anyways.

i went to the supermarket and the oliver guy was there!

i got his name this time: Oliver Parmetisan.

okay...i didnt really get it but i think it is something like tt.

i wonder what he is. i mean yes i know he's human but heritage terms and all.

and i saw him looking at me shop! wuahuahuaua. i was in there for like half hour wondering wad to buy.

but he was so heck care when he checked out my items. oh well.

anyways my first time buying strawberrys. woohoo.

apprentice apprentice. whee.

Supermarket Boi

2006-01-05T07:01:00.000-08:00

So today is....

bahhh.

Finance Test is totally rubbish. I can just ask Mr Chin to eat up my paper.

But i deserve it. I guess. I mean...i really did not study the way i had planned.

Dunno why i feel so lazy this sem.

And PRMP meeting rocked. Always loved PRMP meetings these days. It's HIlarious.
Maybe because prmp meeting is not prmp meeting...it's like a yo-yo sisterhood gathering.

loves.

And i bet we were making a lot of noise in the library just now from the horoscopes, to the nice dresses in Elle, to May's Victoria Secret's Pajames to Jurong Point to Hazelnut biscuits.

love hazelnuts whatever things.

*hint hint*

wuhauhauhuaua.

And Sabby is selfish cuz i was willing to share YuHu with her but she doesnt want to. wuhauhauhua.

And no...we did not get any prmp thing done cuz May said GO HOME.

off we went, freezing cuz it was raining heavily.

and the yoyo-ders gave up teaching me how to pronounce Umbrella.

i always thought that's the way to pronounce it but Flora said i have no hope in pronouncing it correctly.

tsk tsk. haha.

and may lent me her umbrella again so that i wont be stranded at the bus stop.

so nice!

and since i felt like i shud roam around for a while, i went to the supermarket. wuhauhuaa.

and there was no queue at one of the counters and i went there and it was the same guy who served me the other time.

and i looked at his badge and it says :

----------------------------

Oliver Parminez

TRAINEE
-----------------------------

well...it was Parminez or something along that line. ANd i thought he was malay.

anyways, the point is he's got such a unique name. I mean who is called Oliver these days?
and Parminez? hotness.

and yes, i find him cute.

and then this auntie come along and asked him how much is the softener in CHinese and he attempted to speak Chinese and he sounds like me when he said $5.95. cuteness!

and then the umbrella (it's may's) sort of slipped off my hand and he said "oops" and he leaned forward to see what i dropped and then he said bye to me.

so much effort!

but maybe he's just friendly.

TVSM should become an extinct module. my grades are sufferung already. i already know it before it happens. i'm sucha genius.

i wonder what i shud buy at the supermarket tml.

Year 2006

2006-01-01T06:23:00.000-08:00

So 2005 has officially ended.

why oh why.

i dont want 2005 to end.

2005 has been great. as far as my memory goes. sure there are the downs but the ups are more than worth it....it's just like the statement of cash flows in finance terms. wuhauhaua.

anyways!

yea...2005 has been great. class was good. friends were good:

the return of Yo-Yo Sisterhood. The creation of Power Peas. The so-called nuts. The personas of America's Next Top Model. The sisters of Charmed.

i can pretty much say 2005 is a year spent most with dmczerotwo. a year filled with laughter, joy and madness and stupidity and fun and amazing amazing time.

happenings have been great...like 3 concerts in a year! gosh, tt's madness man. the MTV thingy with SOnia (thanks sonia!). it's almost cinematic baby!

results were good. i'm talking honour roll, baby. but tt i think was my first and will be my last time there.

it's been an exciting life and i wouldnt turn around and say i regret something cuz i didnt. even if i did (which i dont) they happened cuz they have to happened. i truly believe in the phrase Everything Happens FOr A Reason.

anyways everything went well. pretty much and i'm thankful that i got to spend my 18th year as an 18 yr old.

So today is when i (as well as everyone else) kick start the brank new year.

2006.

wow.

time flies so fast. i wanna stop time. i just want to. it's goin too fast and it's bringing me into a rollercoaster.

but bottomline is: i am powerless.

so the first day of 2006 is good.

went out with my mum....hunting around for a new fridge. and a replacement for the old dvd player. woots woots.

and i played avril's vcd and my mum said "eww. That tomboy. She's not even pretty. She's got a big nose."

and there i was having a friendly argument with her. it was HIlarious.

New Year Resolutions New Year Resolutions.
hmmm.

1. don't be mean.
2. spend less time on the computer
3. do not indulge in temptations
4. do not procastinate my work
5. be less annoying
6. Not to push people away.

i have the tendency to do no. 6. maybe i find them annoying. maybe i just plainly dont like them. maybe it irks me when i see them. i dunno. but i shall try and be nice.

oh yay. my mum just got back. a bunch of old chang kee. good way to end the first day of 2006.

school's a drag.

bish.

31st Dec 2005

2005-12-31T07:10:00.000-08:00

My blog hibernated.

For more than a week. wow.

Just dont have the writing mood.

There's so much thing to update....ugh.

I shall just type whatever comes to mind.

The bicycle accident has left me traumatised and yes i wont be touchin a bike anytime soon.

Now, my head has a lump and my elbow is badly scratched.

I'm touched by my mum's concern...she has suddenly turn into this super concern person;
calling me every two hours when she's workin. i think it made her realise me. i dunno...

and i wanna thank thank thank thank Sabby and Aizat for being at the hospital and sending me to my doorstep. Thank u so much A.S. i truly appreciate it. =)

and to those who pour their concern, thank u too. u know who u are.

and i'm sorry i sort of spolied the bike trip.

how i wish i did not press the brake button. sigh.

now all i can do is pray that my head is fine.

New Year's eve...went to Holland's Swensens with Bryan. Ice cream. woots. Fries. woots.

Oh. and the student deal is back...the one with unlimited scoops of ice cream and a glass of coke for five bucks. anyone wanna go on thurs or wed??

haha.

New Year's Resolution!

cant think of one...i dunno...not to be so paranaid and to read faster? i dunno.

maybe watch less tv but tt's impossible cuz great great shows are returning like Apprentice and Desperate Housewives.

i shall rest my head.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! *grins*

10 Reasons why i am not Partying into the New Year
1. I'm not a fan of crowds.
2. It's a waste of money.
3. I dont get the concept of partyin into the wee hours.
4. i'm a decent person.
5. i just dont party that kind of party.
6. i dunno what to do at that kind of party.
7. i'm injured.
8. i like to be in the comfort of my own home.
9. i'm a loser.
10. and that's why i'm Sharina.

shopping bIsh

2005-12-21T06:07:00.000-08:00

TVSM is such a bloody drag.

and yes my grade for tt module is gonna be poor poor poor.

but whatever.

gosh. it's all so complicated.

and i wasnt even listening to the explaination they were giving yesterday at the esplanade.

i mean like...do i care?? all i could think was was man it's so humid and can he just stop talkin and let us go already?

and no i am not guilty of thinking tt cuz Flora felt the same way. haha.

and off we went to suntec.

and shop shop shop. and got ice creammmm...and yes i can be indecisive. thanks flora for making me eat Yami Yoghurt and helpin me make up my mind.

haha.

and bought stuff.

and yes i am broke.

i have to stop spendin a +/- 50 bucks a day. it's burning me i tell u.

and i thought i could go for another round of shoppin next week since...it's the sales season.

but thennnnn...

i totally forgot abt the Backstreet Boys concert tix.

there goes my hundred bucks when i thought i could buy that cute cute cute topshop handbag which i have been eyeing for quite a while. or that top at newurbanmale. or those nike shoes. or the blackeyedpeas cd which i have been wanting to buy but always forget.

what bad timing.

but of course i have to have to have to go for the BSB concert. it's like a no brainer.

looks like my shoppin has to be...postponed.

cuz daddy wont top up the cash in my visa. bish.

and mummy said she will buy me that crumpler bean bag.

so i shall just appreciate things as they are.

America's Next Top Model in ten.

excited-ness.

Bun Club

2005-12-19T08:10:00.000-08:00

met up with the Bun Club.

after two years.

and now we are hangin out again.

Bun Club = Jessie + Azlindah + Sikin + me.

and yes it's an exclusive club where the four of us will tie our hair into buns on fridays.

i still remember the friday mornings in the toilet before assembly. miss those days.

and we were such influence that other students start tying their hair into buns using their scrunchie. jessie rocks cuz she was the founder of the club. *grins* and i was the the first member - if i remember correctly.

everything was same old same old. exciting.

there was so much to talk and we talk non-stop from 3 to 6.45pm.

And Az the Queen was late as usual. One Hour late this time. yes. it's extreme. haha.

so things hasnt change much since then.

and it was nice.

coffeebean. woots. but i prefer starbucks coffee.

and we went shopping. sweetness.

spent like one hour in Mango alone.

gosh the place was madness.

before all that was our nutsy meeting.

terrible terrible.

and yes...she is such a bee.

yes i'm good at spotting the animals in humans.

and sonia has to stop sayin the things i wanna say. haha.

still. it's funny how God make things work.

and honestly, it can be overwhelming yet nice at times.

and boy am i stressed.

and yes i am afraid to take a step forward; afraid i may crash.

and so i am gonna build a wall.

but maybe this time, i will build a wall made of mud.

gosh, he's just too perfect.

quizzes

2005-12-18T09:44:00.000-08:00

Quizzes quizzes quizzes. i cant slp.

So i did the house test thingy which Sonia had pasted the links on her blog.

Here is the analysis:

Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are good at making friends and when the joyful moment arrives, you make the most out of it.

You love your house and family. You are a gifted artist as well. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. You often come up with solutions to problems. You are an ambitious person.

You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You always have plans on your mind. This might cause a lot of stress if things don't go the way you expect. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.

and i did more (and still doin).

How do you eat fried eggs?

White first and yellow last.

Here is the analysis:

You are logical, smart and inventive. It's okay for you to make people think that you are a little self-centered. You just focus on what you're doing.

And I shall cut and paste some of the other takes:

You have no confidence. You try to take chances but always miss them since you are too scared to really jump in and try.
In any case, if you don't make any efforts to meet people, no relationship is going to get started.

You've made your way well in this world despite all the obstacles you've had to faced. You have survived a lot more troubles than most people. You have had to deal with difficult people, ridiculous rules, and tempestuous relationships.

possible jobs includes being a performer, musician, social worker, athletic coach yada yada yada. ROCKS.

okay enuf abt me.

so went to sarah's musical thingy.

it was impressive i must say. much much better than expected. loveeeee.

and jiaying was damn funny la with her looking radiant (only before the musical) and her discovery of "fantasia barrino". LMAO.

and it's 2. i better slp. i cant cant cant be late.

computer whiz.

2005-12-17T11:21:00.000-08:00

So i came online with an intention to blog abt something else.

But i shall digress since it's 2.45 am in the morning and i just woke up two hours ago and i've just watched Anti-Trust.

Mind-boggling. Such a thriller.

And now that i am in front of the computer, i am pretending to be a computer genius (somethin i would never be) inspired by Ryan Phillipe who plays the lead character in Anti-Trust who could come up with computer network codes and stuff and get deleted files.

Gosh. That character is a bloody genius.

So, for this short moment, pls pretend that your friend Sharina is a computer whiz.

haha.

anyways.

Oh and i think computer geeks are something.

anyways.

Holidays are here. The so-called holiday which is filled with heavy workload.

Boo.

So anyways (yes i realised i've used anyways like 3 times, and still counting) I had my script consultation thingy with Ms Lee on Friday.

So there we were discussing how to bring meaning to the dialogue and she suddenly asked "Do you have a boyfriend?"

Yes I was puzzled but after a second i realised it is in relation to the script. And I say not currently.

So she went on assuming that i did have one. which i did yes.
and then she carried on asking "what is it that you will say or do to show your partner that you truly love him?"

and there and then. my mind went blank. completely.

And then a swift of flashbacks.

and i searched thru those flashbacks and i tried diggin for an answer.
and i came up with no answer.

cuz i've never really loved anyone before. sort of. and i dont think i have the courage to.

so i just sat there and frowned and had that thinkin look and feel like a complete idiot as Ms Lee waited for a response.

which i dont have one and which i cant come up with one automatically.

besides that point, the script i am working on is not moving too well but Ms Lee said i caught the essence of it. So that was encouraging. =)

back to the point.

while at work, i was reading this book "Girls' Poker Night" and they had this paragraph: "I think that's what confused everyone. Straight. Gay. Fine...Bi...that somehow screams 'I really can't commit', you know?"

i'm not too sure if i am interpreting the message as intended but whatever.

so i woke up this morning (saturday morning) with the feeling that i wasn on someone else's bed.
and i dreamt of something that is of meaning but i cant remember it. i never remember my dreams.

okay. i dont feel like a whiz kid anymore.

web frenzy

2005-12-14T23:41:00.000-08:00

update on week activities:

Monday

watched Prime. love love love the show. Bryan Greenberg was so so so hot. Hmm. Not really. but he's cute...like real cute.

and Bryan bought me cookies. love love love cookies. yum.

oh. Bryan Greenberg is the actor in Prime, in case u are wondering.

And Bryan who bought me cookies is my fren. haha.

Tuesday

The Peas-ers wore black. Like so coincidentally. Seriously, i'm already startin to believe the one thing i started never existed. it's quite sad though. but maybe there IS hope. *cross fingers*

Wednesday

Sonia and I sniffed 5 times consecutively at the same time. She is such a copycat.
Catch up on Britney news. Gosh were there tons. And found the best website ever: divorcekevin.com coolness. naw, not the best but she really shud divorce that shit ass. Kevin is jeopardizing my future man. wuhauhauuaa.

Thursday

I need a break.

overprotected.

2005-12-10T06:30:00.000-08:00

today is a normal day. nothing exciting. except for my lunch. and i realised that i am a vegetarian today. totally.

had huge huge huge tofu + beansprouts + peanut sauce for lunch. yum yum. and that one hour spent lunching with my aunt was cool cuz it's been quite a while since i have had a decent chat with her.

and then my aunt asked me whether i wanna work at AtivoBar (it's the wrong spellin but something like tt) at Mount Faber. and well...given its name, yes it's a bar. and she was giving me the details like reporting time, the "uniform", the ppl who work there....

and then she stopped and she had that thinkin look and then she shook her head and said, "eh. u better dont work there la. here is enough."

lmao la.

but i thought it would be cool to try. experience experience. but i dont think my grandma and my aunts and uncle would like to see me serving beer yea? boo.

so yay. next week is the last week of sch! COOLNESS. FINALLY. been waitin and waiting.

i wanted to say somethin. but i forgot. i shall leave it like this.

The Finals.

2005-12-09T08:12:00.000-08:00

So Talentime was pretty awesome i must say. haha.

Let's start from the beginning:

I had someone to do my make-up for me. Coolness la. Must thank Mas and Lann for being so so nice.

And i think Mas rocks la. wuhauhauaua. damn funny la him. And I was his first product. Too bad he couldnt stay to watch. ):

And Sabby spilled my secret to them when i whispered to her "I think i look like Britney." Sabby arrrr...

Yes. Maybe a bit buoy bah...haha...but hey, whatever makes me happy alright? haha.
eh. but i really look like ok? STOP LAUGHING. hehe.

And I wasnt exactly nervous. I think it's because of the make-up thing? It calmed me down. i mean...who doesnt like being dolled up? haha.

So was excited excited excited.

And Sabby and Sarah rocked the stage la. Awesome-ness. haha. it's like a mind-blowing performance.

And congrats to Spectacular Sabby!! woohoo.

So...continue continue....

hmmm...finally came to my turn. Gosh was i excited. And no i wasnt nervous. Bloody weird la.
And the whole thing was dark tt i couldnt see anyone.

Did a little ying-and-yang (okay i dont really know wad tt means. haha) and i think i was okay....right?

haha. Oh yes. The very ugly squeak. God. I almost died. When i went off-key (and yes i know it was damn bloody obvious. hilarious seh), i almost died.

Oh, and i almost died too when i was searching for that string to pull of the blue cloth. I was panicking and .....seriously, i didnt even know wad i was sayin into the mike cuz all everything was so...chaotic. and in the end, i pulled it off at the wrong timing. haha.

A thousand thoughts were goin thru my head and i was like cringing. wuhauhuauaha.

But besides the squeak squeak (damn was it embarrassingly notice-able), i think i like wad i did. (yessss buoy bah again. hahahahahaa)

And yes, i was slightly disappointed. But then i think again, i realised that it's fine cuz:

1) i forgot my lyrics and stumble upon them as a result
2) i did that stupid inevitable squeak
3) my vocals were shaky

and that squeak...resembles....britney's.

No kidding. I mean...i watched so many of her live performances (and yes i think she does lip-sync) and whenever she says into the mike "Now...screeeeaaammm", she will squeak.

So there. haha.

But the best of all....(well, not really the best la) he stayed to watch and then he msged me. *faints*

wuhauhauauhuahua.

yes, i am touched.

and i wanna thanks all DMC students who stayed all the way seh. All the support. *does a curtsey* wuhauhauhauha.

oh, and the lecturers: Ms Kwa, Ms Peter, Ms Low. thank u thank u. (as if they are readin this. haha)

oh. and aizat and jiaying...i could hear their voice from backstage. wuhauhauhuahuaa. both of u won the best cheer-er. i am so proud of u all. lol.

oh and jiahui for video-caming.

and seriously, i thought james was better than joe. too bad though. sigh sigh sigh.

gosh. i wanna perform again (minus the squeaking u mean - Ed).

Sonia and her Selenge Cubicle

2005-12-06T11:30:00.000-08:00

Sonia's 2nd Request:

Ok. So this happen like last week. Friday to be exact.

So wad happened was...during one of the lecture break or somethin, Sonia and i went to the back toilet to...for the reason ppl go to the toilet! duh.

so when we entered, we heard Jiahui and Sarah in the cubicles talking. So being the playful playful us, we bang on their toilet door to scare the hell out of them. (right - Ed)

Then Jiahui was like "Sharina ar?" (eh, how u all know ar? am i TT predictable? NO RIGHT. haha.)

So, Sonia, being the 11-yr-old she is, put her finger to the lips and we tiptoed to the other end of the cubicle (Sarah and jiahui and me only use seatin toilets. haha) and Sonia went in and she was like motioning me to come in with her.

At the moment of being selenge and it's just the spur of the moment, i joined her.

Yes i did.

yes. Very SELENGE.

But SOnia is more selenge to have suggested that.

Cuz wad happened was...

Jiahui and Sarah went off (maybe they thought it was some unknown stuff tt knocked on their door. LOL) and in came.....some girls.

There were...4 of them? and yes, we were stuck in the same cubicle. Not literally stuck. :

just...trapped. thanks to sonia.

LMAO la. and they were like talking abt stuff and it was quite amusing so i started giggling but i couldnt laugh cuz sonia kept askin me to shut up. wuhauhauuaa. yes, we were eavesdroppin. That was the only thing we were capable of doin. We cant open the door! Can u imagine!

and worse. They were in the washroom for ten whole min. SO LONG!

So we waited and waited and when the moon dropped, we heaved a sigh of relief and i stepped out when we hear silence.

yes. it was stupid. but it was super funny la. LMAO.

and no. nothing happened except for the eavesdroppin the some girls' conversation. wuhauhuauahua.

it's 3.45am. i shud slp. soon.

10 Things

2005-12-06T11:05:00.000-08:00

On Sonia's Request:

Name 10 things that bring you a moment of joy, and tag 5 friends to do the same.

1. Britney Spears
2. my video/CD/DVD collection
3. my friends.
4. making my Grandma smile and laugh.
5. being crazy.
6. stars. as in twinkle twinkle little stars. not star star.
7. family bonding.
8. Pepsi.
9. sincerity.
10. performing.

tagtagtag: anyone? haha.

Speed Shopping.

2005-12-06T01:44:00.000-08:00

Been 6 days since i last update.

So that i shall do.

The day was boring. I mean like obviously; with PRMP and Finance.

Boo-hoo.

And lunch.

And school again.

And then went shoppin with Flora at Bugis. Correction. As Flora put it: Speed Shopping it is.

haha.

So we rushed to bugis and we walked like super fast dodgin ppl and everythin. damn funny la.

and Flora was kan-chong; as she knows i gotta be in sch by 5.45pm for some scriptwriting consultation.

and FLora is like damn pro la....knowin her way around the very confusing Bugis Street. well, i must say confuse is an understatement.

FIVE STARS for Flora.

*grins*

got the jeans i sort-of-want and i got a huge huge huge Britney poster. super cool la. and it was like the last piece - yay and boo.

and now i am waiting for my turn for the scriptwriting thing in the classroom. Howie is taking a loooooong time. haha.

Oh...before i end off, Sonia and Flora tortured my cheeks. My delicate cheeks.

SO i had half a Pocky and put it horizontally in my mouth and Sonia and Flora pressed the Pocky stick on each side so that it will break into two. COOLNESS la. and yes Sonia, you can't do it. wuhauhuahuahua.

AND.

After how many months of tryin, i somehow got to know how to beat box. yesssss. it's super cool. but still a rookie though. but still! WOOTS. yes i know i am talented. (right - Ed) wuhauhaua.

ANd i did a magic trick with the lead thingy and my thumb in AM class. I know you all fell for it Son and Flo. But bad bad bad Timo had to spoil it all.

Still. They were in awe. RIGHT? wuahuhauuahuha.

Ok. My turn soon.

Happy Birthday Britney

2005-12-01T22:03:00.000-08:00

Guess what day it is today?

Yes. 2nd December.

Happy Birthday Britney.

Wish u well.

Same for your baby.

And may Federline rot in pieces.

Once again, wish you a happy 24th birthday.

Gosh, u are getting old.

your huge-est fan ever,

Sharina.

Bike Riding

2005-12-01T07:17:00.000-08:00

So today....was fabulous.

haha.

had that attitude launch thingy. good job well done to jawei, sarah, may and the rest of the yearbook committee. JIAHUI. I DIDNT GET MY PARTY POPPER.

haha.

And then. Prj meetin. i am actually quite apprehensive. i hope hope hope everythin is like correctly linked.

And Sheng picked me up from school. he was late late late.

And he said he had a hard time finding Dover Road. That poor boy.

And vroom off to Junction 8. He was goin super fast la. And when he turned, my heart skipped a beat. I mean i could have fallen off that bike. wuhuahuaua. but super cool la.

the wind is like awesome. just blasting. no wonder i am wind from captain planet. wuhuahauaa.

So when we get to J 8, the timing is all screwed up.

And then Sheng was coming down with fever.

So he sent me home.

So poor thing. and super nice la.

like from Bishan, to Dover, to Bishan, to Holland and back to his home in Bishan.

Coolness. I secured my minus one.

Ulcers in My Mouth

2005-11-30T23:20:00.000-08:00

i have been feelin pain pain pain.

for five days.

i have two ulcers. in my mouth. at the worst places u can find.

one on my tongue. wherever it is. i cant locate the exact location but it hurts everytime i stretch my tongue.

and one right at the bottom of my mouth near my gums. ouch ouch.

so i was putting Bonjela - this gel-like substance that is suppose to get rid of ulcers.

So i put it on again just now and it was the worst ever. I mean putting on the gel will obviously sting. But this was another kind of painful.

Like some pain from the outer universe, if such a thing exists.

There i was right in front of the mirror groaning and gritting my teeth. goodness. that gel is a haunt man. and my pupils were dilating. goodness.

stings like mad.

and things arent any better either.

so the talentime thingy clash with the PRMP CA.

CORRECTION.

the bloody PRMP CA clash with the talentime.

which is more impt?

seriously speaking...talentime? i mean, i dont usually get into this things like individually. it's a nutcracker case and that is what i am gonna be on thursday.

and it aint helpin that i have a test to study for on the night before. 5 lectures mind u.
is she crazy or wad?

so irritating.

and it doesnt help that i cant find my minus one.

this is so mind-boggling.

actually no. it's just plainly and so in-your-face irritating. yes. totally.

and ooooh. we missed ryan's performance just now.

another bloody waste. so what the hell la.

but Mr Ang was like really bloody angry. Goodness gracious. Sarah better do something. haha.
oh and yes. been a while since i update.

for now, i wonder when my ulcers will go away.

ul-cers, go away, and dont come back another day.

rain rain, i like rain, please come back again tonight.

what was the title of that nursery song again?

Uptown Girls

2005-11-30T08:14:00.000-08:00

So I just watched Uptown Girls. On dvd.

Watched it in the movies like wad...2 yrs back? and i still love love love it.

And i still cried as much. It's so sad and it all makes sense.

and Dakota Fanning is like super adorable.

Boy. I wish i could just get sucked into the screen and pinch her pinch-able cheeks,

so so so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

cant stand it.

i think kids should just stop growin and stay cute. seriously.

can u imagine what dakota fanning will look like when she grows up?

it's just like the young barrymore who is so so so friggin adorable and it isnt all that great for her now.

so kids should stop growin and preserve their cuteness.

haha.

and there's something abt kids tt i so love.

i dont exactly know wad.

maybe it's their teeth. their cute little small teeth.

i dunno what else.

okayy. it must be their teeth then.

before i say goodnight, wanna say congrats congrats (to us) wuhauhaua to all the honoured people in the rolling honoury - Jiahui, Meihui, Becky and Jessline.

Our class grabbed all the spaces.

Arent we such thieves.

i better go before i sprout more nonsense.

cant wait to see pancake in like...12 hours...to do her thingy.

but eh...it's not like she is appetizing.

not at all.

and yes i dont think i like her.

Finals

2005-11-24T23:20:00.000-08:00

Good news Good news.

Even though i am not feelin particularly great.

But still!

I got in the FINALS! for Talentime! Am i cool or wad???? wuhauuaahuaa.

And congrats to Sabby and James too!!

woots. Happy.

I can pay my tribute to Britney. That i shall do. I promised her. wuhuahuaua.

So went to Sabby's hse.

Coolness.

Ate so much. Yum-ness.

And Shakirah and Zaidan is like so cute la.

Super cute. And i almost wanted to put Shakirah into my bag when we were leaving the hse. wuhauuaua.

And bloody aizat went to influence Zaidan and he made Zaidan agreed to his false philosophy sayin i am ugly.

Well. To each his own. And yes i am hurt.

And Aizat racist la. wuhauuaua. He kept asking zaidan whether i am chinese or malay and Z kept sayin i am Chinese even though i am speakin to him in Malay.

Nevertheless.

They are cute cute cute. And wheee. I got to carry them. I love carryin little kids. wuhauauhaua.

so i just did this quiz: Are you Trying to be Too Perfect?

Are you sure you want to go there? Aren't you living with an uneasy combination of always being exhausted and never feeling as if you've done enough? The results you've already gotten have convinced you that perfection is possible. It's not....."accept the fact that there's simply no time in the world to rotate your tires, grow fresh herbs, change the air-conditioning filters, work all the major muscle groups, plan your financial future and liberally apply sunscreen every time you leave the house. At least not if you're going to insist on sleeping." ...Raise them for what really matters and you'll learn how to put your own happiness at the top of the list. You'll learn to love the life you already have and the you that you already are.

So true.

ANd i am quite tired of life now actually.

And I just realised why i was so stong abt singing Fall to Pieces when i really really wanted to sing Things I'll Never Say.

Cuz the lyrics makes sense to me. Right now. Every single line. Especially the bridge.

Fall To Pieces

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to sayT
he things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the dayI pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

[Chorus:]
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

Chorus

Bridge:

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means
Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
wanna know everything, everything

Chorus

liars.

2005-11-23T23:28:00.000-08:00

Just when i am about to start feelin happy and starting somethin new.

and then i find liars.

and i dont know who i can trust anymore.

hate it.

hate everything.

and yes i am crushed.

Talentime.

2005-11-23T22:21:00.000-08:00

So!

Oh, before i start. Did i mention i fell yesterday? while doin the "kungfu" fightin with JY? it's damn lmao lar.

And i scrapped both my knees. But the right knee's worse. I can see like the muscle and it's like watery and stuff. ouch ouch ouch. pain pain pain. hope it doesnt leave a scar.

hmm.

And today!

Today was coolness seh!

Sabby rocked! Rock to the max! yeah man. Go Peas!

Despite the microphone problems, Sabby was awesome awesome awesome. Congrats Yoyoder/Peas-er/sister! *grins*

And I think i did okay. woohoo.

And i was super suprised like 15 min before the performance:

Mark called and said that he was in SP. And then he reached SB like ten min later and i was like...what the hell. He actually came amidst his crisis with his dad's hospitalization and stuff.

so so touch. sweetness.

and i wanna say thank u thank u thank u to my beloved beloved classmates who cheered. So so so so touch. and everyone else too.

thanks for bearing with my voice. wuhuauhuahua.

and thank Zul too for playin the guitar. It was super last minute and yet he was able to learn the chords. Genius la!

So got home like super early...like at 2pm. Bought lunch from downstairs. And watch tv. And i was surfin thru the channels, the daily Spanish Show on RTM 2 is still playin!

Coolness.

After which i called Debbie Deb Deb to play bball.

So she came all the way to my house and we played at the court. coolness.

The last thing i played bball was like more than a year ago!

So at 7.15 we stopped playin and i sent Deb to the bus stop and being the very obedient daughter, stopped by the laundry shop to pick up my blankets my mum sent for washing.

And then the fellow was like, "oh. it's still washin." and he friggin couldnt be bothered.

and i was like, "u stated the date for collection as 22nd. so it shud be ready by now right?"

i was ultimately furious. and i sounded...i dunno...scary.

then the guy just grinned sheepishly and his wife looked slightly scared.

i shud have scared them by saying "i can sue u all for breach of contract."

and so tonight, i shall freeze to death again. no blankets. i mean it's at the laundry shop.

i shall just hibernate.

do beavers hibernate?

~Stressed~

2005-11-22T20:26:00.000-08:00

I was super stressed.

And then it was okay.

And now i am stressed again.

Bah.

So Sunday was a turmoil for me.

Went to work and realised that i have to do stock taking. It's an annual thing and it can be fun at first but it gets tedious and annoying especially if u did a mistake.

So i had to arranged the shop's code with the supplier's code with 3 different set of items. And each set there were like 50 or 60 of them. Pek chek.

ANd then i had to count postcards. Counted 1700++ postcards altogether. And even had to double check.

My mind was spinning.

So it was physically draining. And it added on to my mental strain.

I was practically on the verge of breaking down. Had that familiar feeling; where i feel like i wanna throw up and my mind was spinning. But my aunt was in the shop and i dont
want to appear sick and stuff cuz i know she had a lot of work to do so i pretended to be ok.

And it was bad. Still had the feeling of distaste in my head. When i learnt that that someone lied to me. Straight to my face. And spread rumours and untrue stuff.

And my eyes were really droopy.

ANd then i was okay.

And now i am stressed all over again.

About tomorrow though.

So audition is at 1pm. But so and so happens that Ryan has to leave school by 12 cuz of some cocktail party. And so i am tryin to push up my timing. But the bloody
schedule-r has yet to reply me.

So now i am .... broken.

Haha. I have to get over it once and for all. I am so friggin nervous just by thinkin abt it.

And i dont really have a back up plan except that Zul MAY be playing for me if Ryan has to go off. But then again, i just sent him the song and he has yet to practise the chords and i have yet to practise with anyone; be it ryan or zul.

This is friggin last minute!

and this shall not happen for an MPP event. I promise!

wuhuauauha.

So now I have no idea what to do.

I want and I need to get into the finals. Cuz that is when i can do my tribute to Britney.

I mean i am like a big big fan of Avril and i love love love Britney.

So i'll pay my tribute to Avril tml and tt's left with Britney.

And i want Britney to have a grand tribute. Cuz i love Britney more.

Okayy maybe i am not makin any sense but that is how i see it. wuhauhuauaha.

sigh.

And what if i chao-sia (is tt the way u spell?) tml? Damn embarrassin la.

For all i care, i may go acapella tml.

Naw. Just kidding. I wont do that.

So i am now praying and prayin that Zul is smart smart smart smart and will be able to learn the chords tonight.

Nice he is!

So wish me luck ppl!

*cross fingers*

anyways.

fell down just now. wuhauauhaa. hilarious la. was playing kungfu fighting with Jy. and she took my slippers and i ran after her and i fell. she fell too.

funny. and there was this ulu (in jy's words) teacher and she suddenly say "media students right?" wow. see through we are. wuhauhuauaha.

so now my right knee is in pain. esp if it gets in contact with water.

reminded me of my childhood. like how i used to get into fights and run around and play catching and play with boys and everything. nostalgic. but it was fun. and crazy. and wild.

speaking of boys. Sheng just told me he stepped on a snail.

OH NO!

Poor snails. I love snails. tt's why i dont eat them. I think they are interesting creatures.

Even though he did it accidentally...still! the sound of the snail cracking....owww!

poor snail. i'm sorry on Sheng's behalf k. i will crack his bones tml. i promise. wuhauuaha.

Saturday + Debbie Deb Deb

2005-11-19T23:10:00.000-08:00

So Jeshulyn and Sonia bailed out on the Peace concert. Bish.

So met up with Debbie Deb Deb at Marslling.

And it was like raining and Mark said it was an open concert on the grass and stuff and i was like thinking oh whatever. I dont even know how in the world to get there.

So we went shopping. Wanted to go town but figured it will be damn crowded and both of us were in town last night (not together though).

So Junction 8 it is. Been a long time since i went there.

And had Mc straight away! wheeee. love love love McDonalds.

So i had this Chicken Teppanyaki burger or something and i was like...ewwww. And being the nice person Debra is, we switched burgers. wuhauhauuaa.

And so i had Double Cheeseburger. Again. Love love love double cheese.

So it was shopping. And we tried on dresses. i think the sales assistant was like annoyed with us.

and i got a black eyed peas bag. in green. my favourite colour. woohoo.

and we talked non-stop. it was just nice. someone to talk to. and i think i talked and talked and talked about Mark. and she approves. Of me goin out with him. wuhauhauau. which dont usually happen. so coolness. maybe this is something.

So my phone died like at 7.30

And when i got home, there was Mark's msg. He used 4 msges into one and they were filled with sorry and please.

He's just so cute.

Perfect Evening.

2005-11-19T02:38:00.000-08:00

nice outfit. check.

nice teeth. check.

height. check.

size. check.

cologne. check.

attitude. check.

good english. check.

okay looking. check.

and it was perfect. well. yeah. close enough. it was such a great evening. it was better than i thought.

and he is just so sweet and funny.

and those sweaty palms! lmao. and he had a very cute explanation for it.

and he offered me his arm. i almost melted.

okayy. i'll start from beginning.

i was 45 min late. yepp. was supposed to meet Mark at 7 but i reached at 745. wuhauhauuaa. dont blame me. there was a jam!

Swensens. I like.

And he pulled out the chair for me. Sweetness. But tt's not uncommon.

And then we came across this doodle bear and whatever it is and Mark wrote "Sharina is...." okayy i cant rmb the last description but it said sweet or somethin. But still!

And i think he's got nice handwriting. Bonus points!

Bottomline. It was great. Just great. Maybe he's not the most good-lookin guy i've been out with. But he is one of the sweetest. The night was rather perfect.

and i am still smiling. *grins from ear to ear*

And another happy news.

So got home yesterday and i half expected my mum to scream at me and get mad and all. But my mum wasnt home so i went straight to bed.

I didnt really wanna face anything bad.

Woke up this morning and mummy talked to me as per normal. I am so relieved. And happy. She wasnt mad. Instead I saw

right through her eyes and into her soul. She was glad i was back. And I know my mum did miss me while i was away. But i miss her more. And honestly, life's miserable without my mum.
But i'm glad everything's good now.

I mean, every year, we will have this huge fight. It's like inevitable. Every year. And it's really bad. My mum will be shoutin and I will be screaming and threatens and stuff.

Oh well. It's not that abnormal. That's what u get when u put two hot-tempered women together. haha.

And more happy news.

Debbie Deb Deb just msged me a couple of hours ago and she announced that A's are over! wheeee
I am so so so excited. We have so much to catch up upon.

And yay. She said she may go to the Peace concert as well. Awesome awesome.

Gosh. I miss her. It's been so long since i last saw her.

I am happy happy happy.

week's update

2005-11-17T08:09:00.000-08:00

ah. finally finally i can touch a computer.

Tues

Tuesday was frigging madness. It was like Sonia and I both had the laughing gas. There we were saying "wow" to andrew's transparency at the same time and at the same tone. And then drinking water at the same time to Mr Chin and his fantasy and i dunno what else....it was just lmao-y.

And laughin is good cuz it helps to take ur mind off things. Things that you pretend is not happening. (:

Wed

And so it was time to face the new groups. It was okay. I am contented. *grins*
And i shall apologise to Sonia for blasting water at her. My bad. Truely. But i find it damn hilarious. wuhauhauauuaau.

And yes, i am Fergie. :P

So after taking the train to school for 3 mornings and taking train home for 3 days, i realised that train people are not as well-mannered. First, they push and push. And they do weird things. Like stare. Or dig their noses. Or sit down beside me and open up their newspaper till their fist almost hit my face. And whatever other weird things.

Good Heavens!

And i dont really like taking trains. cuz everyone morning, on the way to school, i could feel those tears stinging my eyes. And once in a while, one tear will roll down my cheeks and i will try to control the rest but to no avail. So another will roll down and there will be a scream in my head saying "Stop it Sharina. Just stop it."

And someone just stepped into my life. And the perfect time. I mean, that was the last thing i expected. And the fact that we got along so well is like a bonus point.

Among all this midst of my life crisis (which i really haf no idea how to proceed from here and life sucks but i gotta face it cuz i am too old to run away from problems but that's what i did and now i am stuck) there he was to lift me up. It's too complicated but i am glad. I think it's a God-send.

Well. Things always happen for a reason.

i-hate-myself post

2005-11-10T20:58:00.000-08:00

How do you say "i want a break up" without hurting that someone?

the thing is you cant and that is why i hate relationships. cuz someone is bound to get hurt.

and that is the last thing i wanna do - hurt someone. and i dont like it. i dont like it at all.

It didnt really take me much of an effort to say "i think we've had enough and i think the best solution is a break" last time. but to think of sayin it now, i am made to feel guilty.

why i dont know. hopefully, the reason is cuz i am more mature and i have more empathy. and hopefully the reason is not because i still have feelings or anythin of that sort. cuz given the person that i am, i just ...i dunno, me.

one who is commitment-phobic.

and i am ashamed to say this but i have to face the fact - one who cheats.

yeah. that's me. i always deny that very fact but now i think i am too old to run away from admitting that. Gosh i hate myself sometimes.

maybe cuz i believe i am still very young and i have that carefree lifestyle where boys come and go and i like things to be of no strings attached so that i can jump from one to another. seriously i have no idea what the hell i am thinkin but i do know that relationships are at the bottom of my agenda. sort of.

okay.

so, Just Like Heaven is a nice nice nice movie. almost cried but i told myself not too. Tears were springin to my eyes like three times. goodness.

And i think Mark Ruffalo (i think tt's the name of the lead actor) looks like Aaron but i didnt dare tell him that just now. it's just funny.

and i was feeling all off.

and the sorethroat is not helpin. suck. suck. suck.

and jimi aint helping either. i just cant stay away from that guy. there's just somethin about him that aaron doesnt have.

i shud be straightforward and i shall tell him. i know it's gonna be a blow. i've never been on the receiving end but i know it sucks to get...dump.

and there's another whole issue which i cant say.

sometimes, all i wanna do is be honest to myself. but i am friggin chicken and sometimes i just cant face the truth. i just am not brave enough. it's stupid but i feel like i am runnin away from myself.

anyways.

Domino was great. Keira Knightley rocks. Gone is her clean image. And Aizat was .... - let's use a big word - exhilarated to see so many breasts. wuhauhauuaua.

shud have seen his face when i said "Keira Knightley exposed her breasts" yesterday before buyin the tickets.

so it was all ryan + sonia + jy + aizat + me yesterday. where ryan replaced sabby for that few hours. haha.

since it has been a while since i last blogged (okayy i just used "since" twice), i shall make this entry slightly longer.

okay. i know. tt doesnt make sense.

So the dance category for the talentime is open. hooray hooray boo. it sucks.

sometimes i wish i am back in secondary school where i get the freedom of stage. where me and my four other mates graced the stage. where me and my four other mates rocked the stage. where me and my four other mates loved the stage. where me and my four other mates felt the stage. as if it was our third home. second for me, though.

snap back to reality. still, i miss those moments. miss it much. miss it too much that it brought tears to my eyes sometimes. i shall not get all too emotional.

and my bloody sorethroat. it's a sign. positive or negative i dunno.

and i know i will regret it.

but it takes two hands to clap. and i am the only one clapping. so there.

Hari Raya

2005-11-06T01:13:00.000-08:00

Among all the hustle and bustle of school, i totally forgot abt Hari Raya.

It was good. The celebration. First day it was like all the immediate family members just gathering. cousins and uncles and aunties. not many though. but it was just as noisy. u can have 3 ppl talkin and it feels like 10 ppl are holding a conversation at one time.

no surprise. things like that happen. and it was funny. everyone talking at the top of their lungs just to be heard.

and with my mum and my youngest aunt (aunt anna) in the picture, there were eruptions of laughter. (okay, this phrase sounds wrong but whatever.)

Anyways, went to my cousin's party today. and again, the second family gathering. so the place was like super rowdy la.

so while waiting for everything to be prepared, i was just seatin around daydreaming, i think. and then my cousin asked for my phone and i absent-mindedly passed it to him.

and 5 seconds later i was like uh-oh. my phone. and there he was sitting beside me readin all the messages in the inbox. correction. reading all the messages sent by guys in the inbox. and he looked super serious. i almost died.

and he asked me who is this. and i wanted to grabbed the phone out from his hand but he was like super strong la - grabbing both my hands with his right hand and i was like screaming and screaming and then i gave up. so i had no choice but to cross my fingers and hope he wouldnt say anything.

and he kept askin who is this who is this who is this. like 5 times. i had no choice but just to give a nervous laughter and said oh just a fren. but obviously the messages say otherwise. and he kept askin me who's jimi. and i was like nawww noone.

and then he went to the kitchen and i heard the word "sms" and "mat-salleh (angmoh in malay)" and God-knows-what. i could have died there and then. and thank goodness my mum went out to buy him the birthday cake.

sheesh.

and obviously i was angry. i mean tt's like invading my privacy. but i think it's just my cousin being protective of me. maybe he knows guys are like bastards and he doesnt want anything to happen to me or whatsoever. he's 20 and we used to grow up together and he doesnt have a sister so i guess he treats me as one. and he always has though he dont really show it. just like that time in JB where we walked one whole big round just to find my chicklets and he didnt complain or anything.

and then came along my cousin's friends. there were like 20 of them la. 2 girls and the rest guys. and i saw two cute guys. wuhauhauuhaa. and i was shy so i just sat around quietly.

and my mum and aunt anna were the entertainers. it's outrageous i tell you. my aunt pretended to be a reporter from some magazine and kept asking all the guys questions like where you stay and stuff. flirt flirt flirt. yes my 38-yr-old aunt anna who has a husband and 3 girls. it's super funny la. and there my mum crackin some jokes and being sarcastic to aunt anna. and when some of them were goin off, my aunt anna slapped one guy's back and say "ok la. see u again" in a melodious tone. it's so lmao. and calling this guy handsome and that guy handsome and askin my cousin's fren to sit beside her when taking a grp photo.

but it's just them being friendly and trying to make other ppl laugh. hilariously hilarious.

and i get to play with my 5 yr old cousin and she kept pinching my nose. like pinch and then press down my nose and then pinch again. i think it's retribution for pinchin sonia's nose multiple times yesterday. wuahuahuahauua.

so i have.......

4 green packets. wuhauhaauuaa.

never gotten so few in my whole life. but it's okay. i didnt go to the extended side of the family and green packets dont really mean much to me anymore.

it's weird cuz i used to love love love them. haha. maybe it's just me being more grown-up.
and school tml. and for me, it's the official start of school.

school, here i come. right.

MTV Whatever Things

2005-11-05T02:58:00.000-08:00

Okayy.

So VJ Colby is not cute. I repeat, not cute. I saw him on tv and i was like okayy so i thought i would give him a chance thinking that he may look cuter in real life or whatsoever but noooo.

haha.

So the MTV Whatever Things party was okayy. Not good but not bad either. Well, at least it is something new and got to go to an Mtv party is at least somethin heh?

i hope Sonia didnt regret going. wuhauhaahua.

well. so we had a drink. it's called housepour. and it comes in many flavours. and i have no idea what the hell i was actually drinking. i think sonia didnt too. wuhauhauua. we are like so clueless la. and all i know is my drink was stronger than sonia's. i think. haha.

And i wasnt drunk ok. i am perfecto-ly fine.

haha.

*rewinds*

started the day with laughter with sonia at FC 6. it's damn freaky yet funny. all the mirror images. super weird yet super cool. we are sooooo telepathic. imagine two people taking a drink at the same time and the same way (and it did not only happened once!) + placing cutlery similarly + touchin our hair at the same tine + the giggles. lmao lar.

lectures were okay.

and sonia had many bloopers today. "i hitted you." what kind of english is that?? wuhauhauuaua.

oh! not to mention the whoosh incident.

So sonia and i were on our way back from gems and we passed this classroom with this guy with a machine and the machine was blowing really strong wind and we were passing by and then WHOOSH.

we were like whoaaaaa. what the hell was that. and there we went into our giggling fits. it was like ....took us by surprise. damn funny la.

and had kfc. and then shop a lil at town. aizat sharina sonia. (in alphabetical order ok.)

and all of us bought stuff and aizat is rich cuz he bought a lot of things. haha.

and thanks aizat for bringin home our stuff.

then the party. then long john. and i still havent fathom why sonia kept laughing at me. I dont like it when people laugh at me ok. entender? gracias.

i think she's mad. maybe she's the drunk one. wuhauhauuaua.

then home.

and another party tml. it's 3. i shall slp.

Festive Season

2005-11-02T16:25:00.000-08:00

So Hari Rayaaaaaa.

Am i excited?

I am not too sure. I think i am rather neutral.

And it always happen every celebration, be it Hari Raya or Chinese New Year.
And after 18 years, i realized why.

Inter-racial marriage.

My mum's Javanese. So we celebrate Hari Raya. My dad having being a non-Muslim for 30 years, is not that all excited abt Hari Raya; i think.

And my mum is not really into Chinese New Year.

And so every Hari Raya, i'm with my mum and every Chinese New Year, i'm with my dad.
No wonder i dont feel excited abt the festive holidays. It's incomplete. We're incomplete.

I think it's sad. Really.

Anyways, the whole of POwer Peas went Queensway just now. Yayyyy.

Finally. It's been so long!

and it was great. Being the people we are, we are like talking to all the shop-keepers there. Is that wad they are called? Shop-keepers? OKayy la..i will be nice and call them sales assistant. But that sounds so girly...wuhauauhahua.

And Aizat is a MAT! wuhauahuaaha.

And yes! my period finallly finally came. wuhauhauuhaua. i was rather...apprehensive cuz it was suppose to come at the end of the month...

did i just type down my period cycle? lmao. okayy i am too lazy to erase it and anyways, if i am being emo this period of time, u know why. :P
But i am not really affected by it la. The mood swings i mean.

So much food at home! My mum is crazy la. I think she practically bought the whole of Geylang! That's my mum. Mummy who loves to overspend.

ANd my dad who loves to underspend / buy things just right. I dont get it. I wonder where i stand. hmm.

Oh and I am back in SDFTV. Good in the long run, bad in the short run.

I wonder abt tuesdays tho...how ar. I end at 6 and the rest ends at 4. Now i am the odd one out and not Jiaying. wuhauauhuhaua.

Okay la. My stomach hurts.

I dont wanna go school in friiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii. School this week is like so redundant lar.

Happy hols peeps.

*i'lltellyoumydirtylittlesecret.donttellme.dirtylittlesecretttt* *wink wink*

Deepavali

2005-11-01T23:25:00.000-08:00

So today was...

better than i expected i guess. haha.

Went to meet Sonia and JY for our Power Peas Day. (Will.I.Am and Taboo couldnt make it. bish)
Went to Marina Square and ateeee.

And then we went to see furniture and Jy and i were like droolin over the sofas. Well, not drooling la...but we did adore some of them. hahahaha.

Oh. And before that we went to see wedding dresses and the catalogues. Something different yes. And Sonia and JY laughed at my Chinese! how could they!! MEAN GIRLS.

And then Sonia and Jy kept laughing at my ponytail. What the hell is wrong with them. It's not even funny lar. I dont like it when people laugh at me okayyyy. :P

haha.

And then home.

And in the train....halfway thru our journey...and since it was tuesday...a whole of you-kn0w-what, as sonia puts it - bombarded the train and soon enuf the whole carriage were quite filled with them. And they were all standing.

ahhhhh.

So on my way out of the MRT station, two angmoh guys approached me.

oOOo. Hotness!

Like truly. Duke and dunno-what-his-name. So complicated!

So since i was headin toward Holland V, we walked there together.

Oh, they asked for directions anyway. Correction. They asked me for directions. wuhauhauhauhua.

So we walked from the Mrt Station and I learnt they are Germans and they are studyin at NTU and they are goin Holland V to have dinner. At 9.30. lmao.

So i was talkin to Duke for the first quarter of the journey and totally ignored the other guy. I mean Duke is like so hot la. Tall with the kind of hair i so loved...oh that fringe!

And then what-his-name took over Duke's place and he started talkin to me. And i realised this guy is cute. Those amazing eyelashes.

And we shook hands and what-his-name had sweaty palms. wuhauuahua. And Duke has...i dunno. ... nice hands? lmao.

Got them there.

Said bye.

And i made a u-turn and shamelessly asked to take a photo with them. LMAO.

Click. Got it.

And home.

And school tml.

TOtally hate it.

I am still in the holiday mood. And i am so not payin attention in school. i will next week.

promise.

right.

Power Peas

2005-10-31T00:55:00.000-08:00

School starts in 8 hours.

yay. i am so excited.

yeah right.

I am so bloody tired. And i cant slp. I am so screwed.

i shall do this out of boredom:

Band / Clique Name: Power Peas

Constitutes of: Aizat, Sabarina, Sharina & Sonia

Aizat - Will.I.Am
Sabby - Taboo
Sharina - Fergie
Sonia - A.P.L

Latest Member: Goh Jia Ying Elliot

Jy - logo.

And that's just the peas.

Besides that we have powers too.

Aside from psychic powers - strongest on Tuesdays - here are our distributions:

Aizat - Earth
Sabby - Fire
JY - Heart
Sonia and Sharina - still debating between who is wind and who is water but i believe sharina is having the head on wind.

Peas Day: Tuesdays

Peas Place: Starbucks near Borders

Peas colours: Green, white and black.

Peas' Sayings:

Aizat: Howie Day...Natalie...
JY: I dont care
Sabby: FINE
Sharina: I dont like it when people laugh at me.
Sonia: I dont have a tagline.

Peas Book: The Book Of Answers

Is there anything else to add??

just dyed

2005-10-27T22:10:00.000-07:00

It has been raining since 9. At least the rain subside. It was raining so so heavily as if the rain was really angry and there were flashes of lightning and thunder every like one minute.
And the sound of the rain plattering on the windows and what-have-they was so fierce.

I was paralyzed for 15 min on the couch. And it didnt help that i was all alone at home.

Listening to BSB Millenium Cd. So nostalgic. Love them.

Started the day pretty roughly. Called up the Novena furniture and they said "oh no. ur delivery will be on monday."

And i was like "what. nonononononono."

And they said they will check if they can send tml.

Wad the freak la. Overdue for two weeks exactly!

Oooh. AJ's voice is so low and so unique. Erm. OK back.

So my mum called them from her workplace and then she called me and said "WHy u told them to send tml?? They are suppose to send today!! And the indian lady on the phone said they wanna send today but u said u will be out."

Boy was i fuming. That bloody receptionist put words in my mouth. Blast off la. Freak-er. I would rather get it over and done with. Bloody hell.

After which i went to the salon to do my hair.

And there i was deciding and deciding which shade of brown. I wanted one which is not too light but where there will be a change.

So the hairdresser told me to pick that one so yea, she shud know best.

I was super bored while waiting and waiting.

And something super funny happened and i almost burst out laughing. Like LOL.

There she was washin off the dye of my haid and then....ok this is embarrassing....wuhauhaaua.
So she kept rubbing my upper forehead to get rid of the dye stains. And she said, "hmmm. Is tt dye?"

And i was quite confused and then i realised that she meant my birthmark which happened to be brown as well. LMAO.

After which the trimming.

After which the treatment.

And when she wrapped my hair, i almost burst out laughin again. I looked like the lighter version of Erykah Badhu. wuhauuauhahauau.

And down goes the steamer and i felt like i am wearin an oversized helmet. And i sniggered. wuhauuahauauaha.

And so...till now, i dont really know whether i like the colour or not. Or the length. At some point i love the length and at another, i find it too short. And I am not sure whether i got the right brown shade that i wanted though i think i did not cuz it's wayyy lighter.

I am just confused today.

So i had some extra money and i thought it wont hurt to get some small stuff from the supermarket. Bought 4 bars of snickers. What the hell is wrong with me.

And a bag of popcorn. One bag of potato chips. One twisties. One pack of Famous Amos cookies. A box of mints. bahhh.

And i bought groceries over twenty dollars. :

ANd now i am left with two dollars.

Nice work Sharina.